Head over Heart

  10 mins is all i've got to rant, got an econs test tmr to prepare later and need to tune in for an early night. Really need to rant, life has been bad :( Tell me people what to do... I'm really tired and lost. I really found my motivation and worked real hard, but it only lasted for a week plus, now i lost my motivation again. Seeing the people around me work so hard, I really just can't be bothered to do anything. This is so bad... I really take things too easily, nothing seems serious to me...   Another thing is i'm facing a lot of problems besides my studies. My parents are going through a divorce now. My mum is really unhappy living in this house now and i've learnt to look at the brighter side. Yes,we'll be moving out of this 5 room flat to a one room flat, with no mirrors to dance to and probably no space to put my piano and guzheng.... I will not lose my daddy as although I don't get to see him everyday, we will meet up once weekly. I'm closer...

Reflection   I realised that I really need to work harder... Sitting among my classmates, learning that my class 1SR17 getting the top of the cohort & knowing that I didn't contribute at all (in fact pull them down...), the feeling was horrible. It makes me feel like a burden (slang) and I guess inferior would be the right word to use in this context. in·fe·ri·or     [ in- feer -ee-er ]     Show IPA adjective 1. lower   in   station,   rank,   degree,   or   grade   (often   followed   by   to    ): a   rank   inferior   to   colonel. 2. lower   in   place   or   position;   closer   to   the   bottom   or   base: descending   into   the   inferior   regions   of   the   earth. 3. of   comparatively   low   grade;   poor   in   quality;   sub...