Head over Heart

 The ocean never apologises for its depth, and neither should you. It's almost like I could smell it from afar. Street signs, warning lights, Nothing even happened, just a 'hi'.  Yet I am spiralling down this rabbit hole. Overwhelmed with nothing but the possibilities of anything. I sense fear, my body, my mind, reminding me of what once happened. I know if it has to happen, it will still happen. But how do I let myself go and wear my heart on my sleeves again. The most absurd part of it all is that nothing has happened. The more of the world you see, the more you realise how huge this world is. You get excited, you also get weary. I don't wanna float in this void forever. A place and person to call home, a romantic die-hard's simplest and hardest wish. This time, I get reminded of you not because it's you, but because that feeling was last associated with you. Two years passed, I'm ageing, my cells are dying, yet the silent ache and echo never fades. It get...

     Last night, I indulged in a psychology love movie. The 'before' trilogy. I remember watching 'Before Sunrise' not long after my breakup. I remember feeling extremely sad, going through all the emotions. Two people passionately in love, not knowing better, just intoxicated. The movie explores love, loss, what ifs... Is it only this special because it only happened for a short period of time? Any 'more' of it, it wouldn't be as special, as magical, as lasting. Is it more sacred because we knew we won't ever see each other again.      A year and half later, I sprained my back and decided to stay up one night and watch a movie. I went for 'Before Sunset'. The story continues on with the two main characters meeting again after 9 years. They didn't know they would meet. But in their own ways, they were doing things in search for the other person in this big wide world. The night was so impactful that the guy wrote a book about it, it became th...

 Hello,  The biggest update that I needed to say between the period that I was away, is that I dyed my hair pink and I shaved it all away again <3  Every time I come back here I feel like a little girl again writing my thoughts down. Today is one of those days where I'm just home alone, not lazing on the bed binge watching dating shows but instead I picked up some markers, got a blank canvas and started writing all the words that has inspired me in 2025. Reading back on my last post in 2025, yes you did the CNA interview and you got pretty recognisable in public after that HAHA. 2025 was honestly an exciting year for me in terms of content creation. Even though I didn't become super popular, there were many firsts in content creation for me. Comic con, paid gigs, getting invited to events, receiving PR gifts, dating show. WELL, it wasn't a lot but it was all NEW stuff shocking my system constantly. That helped me get rid of my sadness a lot. I remember the set-up where...