Sparkles of 2014

I know I haven't blogged in a long time, so I'm here to recover this lost space of mine.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS, 2015 is here and it's so freaking fast.

The reason why I didn't blog was because I was always home late, and I didn't have much things to blog about. Most of the stuffs to me now either seem a little too sensitive to talk about or not worth mentioning at all. Also, I created a DAYRE account (don't even bother trying to find) which allows me to rant on the spot with no one following :) guys if you'll need a rant should totally check it out, but try not to populate or it'll defeat the purpose. Let's relive some 2014 moments shall we ? :)

It's really a long way to goooo...

Let's start with prom shall we? It was the most unprepared glamorous night I've prepared for. Had dance practice before that. It was a good night because I felt super confident again with my long hair, I felt pretty, I felt girly, I felt people's gaze (and let's just assume it's for the bright side). Prom really ain't a very interesting event because I was already disappointed in sec 4, but this time I really came for my friends. I used to be super enthusiastic for all the events as I fear I would miss up some fun. I think prom is like a closure to this JC life. I'm so glad I can be funny, tease and make my friends laugh again tonight, I can laugh along with them just like The school days. I'm so happy for this role that I play as a super high, humorous and fun friend. Since we're on the topic on prom, let's talk about these two years of jc too (readers says oh shit). Started orientation dancing, with no friends at all and trying to tone down to become a quiet and reserved kid. Totally kicked my habit of sleeping in classes. I was not very sure what went wrong, I was attentive in class but probably skimpy in my work and follow up actions. I didn't study during the weekends, I went out with friends and go for dance, only leaving every Sunday evening for mountains of homework. Being an ECONS rep made me feel good, like I still have a responsibility to hold. My rank point hovered around 20, I was the weakest in my super smart class. My heart really wasn't here, I dread jc la. Teachers were helpless about my late coming, i was a cooperative and attentive student in class, with moments of brilliance but my mind seems to be in dance when I'm in class, they said. Especially during the exams when CCA paused, my whole mind was cant wait for it to be over and didn't even thought of doing it well. The most touching period of my jc life is when I was the only one in my class taking the re exam. My classmates encouraged me a lot and I was affirmative that I will pull through as long as I set my mind to it, and I did. Another group of people in SR That I would never trade for are The dancers. Our bond is so strong, simple in the name of dance. I don't think the main point is about going through vigorous training together, it was about seeing each other in the changing room after a long day, dropping our heavy baggage and whatever sadness the day in school has brought us, and to sit closely together and lean and hold on each other to rest as we strive hard for our passion. We will always leave the range happy and less stressed no matter how tired we are, we strive for our passion. One low point for me was not being able to be an OGL, as I was advanced and not promoted. I love this type of orientation thing and my whole clique wa s in it. I was rather upset and kept complaining about the unfairness but it really hit me hard on how realistic life is and things will just get worst in the future if I'm not good enough ,this time academic wise. I looked from another perspective, the period When some of my classmates are away for orientation, I really bonded and had lots of fun with The rest in class and knew them better in a smaller group. True enough, after being through secondary school, we all know most friendship will fade after we graduate. But if you're always thinking about the future, thinking whether is it worth it or not, you're think you're saving your efforts but truth is you'll never fully enjoy the moment now. It's ok when we drift, it's really ok. You guys were a part of my life, I was a part of yours, we had fun together, we created memories that will stay :) I always look out for those quieter people, I always try to imagine how will things be like in their shoes. They're not hard to talk to at all, they just work better in small groups or one to one. Why not help if you can, it doesn't hurt you and you make someone's day. I have to admit, many a times when I'm spazzing about my EC, I only do so in front of my friends, my expression, my excitement, my retardedness, my positivity spreads to them, to the extend where by I really overrate them and I guess some people will have the wrong impression of me but its alright since it makes everyone happy. In the process of being retarded, I had fun challenging my bravery. Thank you 1SR17 who promotes together with me to 2SR15 (especially my clique to make me feel belonged and not extra). Thank you to the welfare teachers because SR CULTURE OF CARE IS REALLY UNDEFEATABLE. Thank you to SR DANCERS, I love you all!

YNDA CONCERT
Supposed to be participating as an emcee, changed to backstage crew, changed to helping with kids
makeup, and now I'm doing part of the performance, accompanied with backstage crew and helping kids xD rehearsals and tech run was really boring, I used to do over 10 items and now I'm not even in one complete item. It's just not a good feeling to sit there and watch others dance. Still enjoyed the whole process because I mae a new bunch of friends (backstage crew) and had a heart to heart talk with joy, and worked very closely with REBACCA and AMANTHA for our performance :) im like the guy and Amantha is my wife and Rebacca is my affair haha much complicated and much fun xD

Also, taught quite a lot of childcare classes this holiday as a dance instructor and my patience plus love for children is growing :) I don't know how grown up I have to act because I seldom interact with parents but I guess I'm already 19 as of 2015 and that's not quite young .. These parents really treat their child like little prince and princess, good life children. I really love this job, the passion element plus the cuteness overload element. Some kids can be real hard to handle too, super cheeky and violence. Envy that they have no boundary drawn yet between the opposite genders, such cute little friendships :)

Esplanade with QiYang!
I think I've introduced to you guys QiYang on my Instagram but never on my blog. Basically, she's my womb buddy because our parents knew each other before we were born. After which we go to each other's house for visiting every new year. We happened to not be so shy last new year, chatted a lot and even sang songs together on ukulele, found out that we had the same
Subject combi, and decided to motivate each other to study for A levels. I think people who go through this Shit with you really are very important. During our study sessions every weekend, her parents would cook delicious meals for me and we always deviated from our books at about 1030pm xD we talked about almost everything under the sun and really got to know each other a lot better as we discussed open ended questions. Our first after A's outing was to check out esplanade concourse and we definitely werent disappointed with the music by Gabriel! Also had a mini photoshoot session as we both acted like tourist, I'm super bad at accent games :(

ADVENTURE COVE

Finally my long waited, planned before A levels trip. On a side note, the amount of money I spend today solely on admission fee and locker gave me a scare. This place is like a bigger version of wild wild wet, although I do not understand how do you not fall sick when the whole day you just get totally wet and then stand in the open windy air for 50 minutes (queuing), play the rides, and get wet
again. Went with my BFFL wenle and she's forever so easy going that it's hard for me to not be
to make decisions and get things going. Had fun screaming together, capsizing, saying thank you, snorkeling and challenging ourselves. First time jumping down from a height into 4m water, the feeling of overcoming your fear is like yeahh. And first time snorkeling too although it was not very fun as I was so far away from the fish, I would really love to try diving. Hopefully my
Phuket and krabi bound trip will get a chance to try. Oh ya, and yolo-ing to bring our naked phone out and making adventurous passes while getting on a float. Trying to stand still on the glass floor and yes friendly life guards :) had a good whole day with Her yayy! Can't wait for more holiday plans with her :)

AHA

Trainings to trainings at PA STUDIO, Scape, NP, I bonded very closely to the dancers of
This item. On general, they're all fun, loving and caring people. We spend a lot of times together this holiday and I'm really over the moon to be part of this item. Our item is called the fault in our books and it's a complain about singapore's education system. Have been doing zhongyi's item for the past few years and I'm glad I made a change this year.

Oh ya I have a twin brother called Jiasen, everyone thinks we look alike
Lols!

Also, super grateful for all the new friends I've met through this platform and not to forget my FANS ! Xoxo

Second night after AHA, went to yingying's house for post-aha party. First time I drank so much and introduced to a lot drinking games and terms xD next day ate breakfast at lot 1 before a long journey home with lots of flowers but cannot be compared with yulin's xD

COLLEEN STAYOVER
It was Christmas Eve and after having lunch with the dancers at Vivo sakae, went to colleen's house! ^^ baked Brownie and Oreo cheesecake pop. Had a grand dinner with her family, and had an interesting learning experience with Jia wei. HarmoniZe singing will never be forgotten as a culture every stayover, and heart to heart talk hehe.

Next morning she went for church service while I went back home to church service too with my mom :)

Christmas yanting' s hall (merry Christmas)
Because the cake pop we did the previous night failed quite badly, unsweetened chocolate as coating tasted super bitter xD baked myself again at home before meeting the dancers as I wanted to soak in the season of giving. Went all the way to NTU, and started the party hehe. Wrote each of them a card and then we proceed to drinking games. Today's drinks were GOOD MAN, had jack daniel's. Even though I'm not a frequent drinker, this is by far the most pleasant tasting one xD tonight I really drank a lot till I was so called 'tipsy' as my head was spinning and heavy. Funny me even tried stretching as it wasn't painful at all xD they said that when I'm drunk (which I don't think I am cause I remember everything I did was just dizzy), I like to mob the floor xD because people keep spilling the drinks all over the floor and I wanted to help but the moment I stood up from the bed and squat down, I felt super dizzy and I lost my balance xD (just sat down, how far can a squat and sitting down position be). koon hui played some tarot card readings with us and honestly I may totally believe in it but at the same time, I also believe as much that the future can be shaped xD you may be destined to be like for now, but you can change it later. That's my view on astrology (horoscope) readings too. Slept for only an hour and woke up being wide awake. Went for breakfast at NTU and then headed home in the afternoon.

My day doesn't stop here.... It was HLC camp.

HLC CAMP

Reported for HLC camp day 3, was feeling super lethargic from that 1 hour of sleep and trying to zi high to not fall asleep. As my role was small, didn't receive much acknowledgement post-its but I made an effort to write a lot of acknowledgement for others in the camp, because they deserve it or they needed some encouragement. I believe my note did make a difference and made my stay at this HLC camp a more meaningful one. Of course, I was thrown with lots of disco night stuffs to do last minute, including decoration, and logistics and I was super stressed up because I've not been in this field for A YEAR. Haha. It turned out well, I think the campers enjoyed their night but idk why this year the party just couldn't get high. Adib was trying so hard to bring up the atmosphere and I was trying so hard to support but lala it died very soon after xD

After disco night was the highlight of my day, jiaxin actually came specially just to talk to me. Given the tone that she said, I was a little stressed cause WHY SO SERIOUS (the song). In the end i had a deep chat with her and I was really touched by this senior that I always always looked up to (She might be reading this hahaha). Thank you Jia xin, for being here for me like more than once even though I wasn't really there for you. I know things have always been tough for you but you this warrior much stronger than me heheh ! Can't wait to see you during Charmaine's Chinese dance performance ! :D went out with jiayin o get supper and again only slept 2 hours max. next day, morning PT, trust fall 2 and break camp (everyone likes this camp cause there's minimum debrief) xD

Sr dancers @ ECP and DI potluck

Finally met up with my closest bunch of dancers! Went to leschane's house and east coast park for a change due to the wet weather prediction. Cycled in the rain and took every fast chances we had to capture beautiful dance shots by the coast. A all girls outing is always that sassy with a tinge of "bimboticness". After that went to PA for potluck. Feeling bad cause I didn't prepare any food there : I wanted to make chocolate pop but time didn't allow. Disappointed with the 'didn't manage to set up' video. Nevertheless, I always feel happy when I'm with this bunch of DI dancers :D went swee choon for supper afterwards and had a mission to catch the last train with yulin! :D

HLC BBQ (happy New Year's Eve)

Went to jiaying's house and there were freaking so many dogs that I almost died. Had a good time barbequeing with zhilin, talked about good old times and life hehe. Watched some movie which I forgot the name too. Played king's card and super lucky it was not me drinking down that beer with vodka with hotdog oily shit xD drank two shots and ate lots of barbeque food (perks of being the one cooking), left early and headed over to Ying ying's house for countdown with ma dancer again.

Countdown

All that charcoal, smoke and burnt Made me feel horrible. Perhaps it has really been a long time since I last bbq. Didn't drink at all at yt's house. Funniest part was we missed the countdown and we faked a 10 sec own time own target countdown hehe. Played first impression which took half the night. I was so touched to hear their impression of me. They said I danced very well in zy's item, and yt and yy always call me cool kid when they didn't know me. Yt said she thinks that I'm the mother of hip hop, super flattered and I know I'm not that good. Js say I'm cute haha (shy) and yl say I always give her advice and sx say I my bend like never ending cause of my height xD I can't rmb others already but thank you for the recognition for my dance because I'm so sick of hearing super tall as my first impression. Tall dancers have tall people problem as we may look awkward sometimes with our limbs so long but they say I always look good hehe. They motivate me to go for more classes, continue to push myself and improve more :D Slept for 8 good hours because I wasn't feeling very well. Unconsciously felt someone throw a jacket on me while I'm sleeping hehe. Next day stayed at lot 1 all the way till 8pm. Caught night at the museum, which was my second time watching hence I fell asleep halfway xD played the arcade with Js, yt and Adrian. I won the car driving game hehe I think I will be a good driver in the future because it's not my first time winning xD played dance dance revolution with Js and I won most of the rounds (I like to win in games hahaha) but Js Jubeat damn good. Bishy bashy is perfect for violent spammers like me xD had dinner with them and kh before heading home.

Decided to join the netballers for friendly match at sengkang court. Why not since it's so near my house :b if I don't play shooter, I'll really feel very useless on court xD played friendly with jy's friends and also another random group that was already playing there. Met this girl called faith that kept encouraging me to join club and eventually play the Nationals. I've seriously never thought of playing for nationals but I'm trying the club this coming Tuesday. Hehe, I'll be cool to have this experience. Why let my height go to a waste plus I do enjoy playing netball with my teammates! :)