Head over Heart

  HAPPY SEXY 19TH COLLEEN.  let's go clubbing, without our boyfriends, and USS double date together, with our boyfriends ;)   Life's a freak, how did time even pass so fast. It's another 6 days since I last blogged and I've already lost track counting down to A's. I'm stuck in this cycle where i'm so tired, I have to squint my eyes to focus on the words when I'm studying, so little sleep each day, i'm feeding on my mental willpower and ... sugar. And I'm not repaying my sleep debt when I have the chance to now. The worst part is that you're freaking sleepy when you start studying and when it's finally time for bed, INSOMNIA. Each time i'm so tired I place my head on the table, I will bounce up and say no, this will just make me more sleepy. Each time I'm super distracted and start using my phone, I will tell myself to stop scrolling, there really ain't much to see and you're wasting your time. Every new day I set a n...

130th post, my previous blog had 786 posts, I started blogging since primary 5, wow it has been 6 years! Every time before I start blogging, i'll go to my blog to refresh about what I wrote recently. Glancing through my previous previous post, it's really a sad post. And I remember saying that I hope there will be lesser bipolar behaviour, because today my post is a happy one again xD   Happy National Day Singapore! I remember how happening my national day was during secondary school because I was involved as a NDP motivator. Cheering and RARA-ing the crowd on, folding balloons for little children and it remember how proud I was doing that because each child looked super happy with their balloon. Before the actual day, NDP trainings the whole saturday for months, literally under rain or shine and having supper together, somehow I think if you go and stalk my old blog you'll be able to find. I miss my army guys WeiShien, Alex and Johnson although they're already not...

I NEED TO STOP DREAMING