FREAKED

  HAPPY SEXY 19TH COLLEEN. 

let's go clubbing, without our boyfriends, and USS double date together, with our boyfriends ;)

  Life's a freak, how did time even pass so fast. It's another 6 days since I last blogged and I've already lost track counting down to A's. I'm stuck in this cycle where i'm so tired, I have to squint my eyes to focus on the words when I'm studying, so little sleep each day, i'm feeding on my mental willpower and ... sugar. And I'm not repaying my sleep debt when I have the chance to now. The worst part is that you're freaking sleepy when you start studying and when it's finally time for bed, INSOMNIA. Each time i'm so tired I place my head on the table, I will bounce up and say no, this will just make me more sleepy. Each time I'm super distracted and start using my phone, I will tell myself to stop scrolling, there really ain't much to see and you're wasting your time. Every new day I set a new goal to accomplish at the end of the day, I completed with half a life. I keep telling myself yes i'm tired, but everyone's tired, you just gotta push through it. For Prelims this week, Math and Biology was a freaking killer. Bio was shocking because i had all the content in my head (the amount of content for bio is no joke you gotta believe me), but the question was so hard I didn't understand what do they want... Felt so helpless in the exam because their application question really too high order thinking I can't connect. And there was a 3 hour math paper today which caused me to have a severe headache in the middle of the paper and after which I couldn't think already. Headache and Math is like ... you can forget about it already...

  Went home, practiced guzheng for two hours and kinda lifted my spirits a little. Went plaza to eat with Mummy then went Mac study. The process of studying is just... (no elaboration needed, except it wasn't very conducive cause my ankle was hurting in the air con but outside got people smoking. It's not like I really hate smokers BUT I WILL SNEEZE NON STOP WHENEVER I SMELL IT AND THEN MY NOSE WILL RUN AND IT'S A HORRIBLE EXPERIENCE ALTOGETHER. My nose is especially sensitive even when i'm on medication for it so... avoiding at most cost is my choice. Now is the exciting part of my post, as some of you may have read in my twitter, yes I met a pervert. He freaked me out and ruin my about to be productive night...

  I went to NTUC to get some sweets. We eye contacted and he smiled and I returned. He commented on my height, which I was quite used to it cause almost any stranger on the road have stopped to comment that I'm very tall, thank you for the enlightenment. It went on to my my age, my schooling place, my staying place. At this point I didn't know what was happening yet and i just thought it was a friendly SENIOR CITIZEN/UNCLE. I know I sound like sound naive kid here but I do have a lot of prior experience to this where the same thing just happens at they're all aunty and uncle friends that seemed to be rather lonely and bored and just needed a short chat. So I was friendly. Of course, I felt uncomfortable revealing my personal info so I did answer him but I gave false information. Then he told me he love tall girls, and I was just shocked. It didn't end here. He went on elaborating about how when tall girls stand straight, they're nice to hug, kiss and make love with. WTF. SERIOUSLY. He keeps calling me beautiful and dear and he keeps scanning my body I felt fucking invaded I swear. The best part is, his hair was filled with white and he's probably older than my Dad. He told me he's single and ready to mingle, what life is all about having a little fun at the right time. I should have just walked away but I think I was really at loss of what to do at that point of time and pretended to search very diligently for my chocolate. He asked me what university course I would like to pursue and my real answer is psychology but I was trying to fake something out so I said sociology, nice try lynette how far apart are they..And he said for sociology you first need to know how to socialize and he gave me the cheeky smile WHAT THE CHICKEN HECK. I know most of you would be like why didn't you just walk away, I don't know why I didn't too probably cause I established that friendly conversation at the start and it's hard for me to suddenly change tone and ignore him and walk off.. Quite a dumb reason yea. He said he's been looking for a tall girl all these years, and asked if i have any tall friends to recommend. And I'm like, no. And he said why don't you recommend yourself. And I said No. Texted YuLin to come NTUC to save me and she thought I didn't have money to pay cause I didn't say clearly in my text and only managed to leave with the excuse of i'm leaving with my friend now, gtg. He told me he just moved to this area, just behind rv plaza and freak this is my neighbourhood where i've been visiting since young with my parents and where i've been mugging since O levels. Despite the fact that recently there are a lot of very noisy people who like to hang out here after it renovated, I do not wish to change my studying venue because of this incident. The best part was, I really never expected this and was freaked out quite bad. Firstly, I thought guys all like petite and cute girls?! That's why I can safely walk around and not fear getting attacked cause i'm neither of those. I actually shocked me when that guy (shorter than me) said, I LOVE TALL GIRLS. It changed my perception of life and I feel that the tall population is being endangered. Returned to Mac and every one left already, the eerie stillness freaked me out again and I hassled home, being super paranoid and called Brendan to stay on the phone till I reach home.

Talking about stalking, let me tell you the past experiences I have that really proves my point of how freaky people are.

There was once I ended dance at 10+ and took bus home. I felt someone sitting behind looking at me so using my dancer skill to make full use of reflection, I held my phone up to look behind me and I really saw a guy staring at me. I was a little scared that he would stalk me so I only slipped out of the bus the very last minute after every one alighted, so hopefully he couldn't anticipate me alighting and alight with me. But after I slipped off, he immediately followed behind. Then I pretended to not notice and walk normally, but I can hear the footsteps behind me. I took a detour under my block and yes he's still behind me, i walked by the opposide direction back towards the bus stop and yes he's still behind me. Confirm following me. So I walked and walked in circles the decided to walk to rv plaza as there'll be more people there. My house downstairs gets very dark and quiet at night... Then when he saw me entering rv plaza, he switched direction and walk off. PHEW

Another time, I was walking on the crossing the road from plaza to home. HAHA all plaza. Then this guy was walking behind me, I didn't think that much because it really happens to be coincidence sometimes the guy just stays the same block. So all the way till my house, he entered the same lift. Plus, he looks like just a teen probably 18-20 years old? I realised something was wrong when the lift started moving and he didn't press any number. So I look out my phone and pretend to use. Then he suddenly used his phone and started taking photos of me. WTF. Like not discretly like in my face putting the camera right in my face and taking taking taking. I was like what are you doing and covering my face with my phone and facing the wall. Then reached my floor and I quickly run out and he didn't follow and he went to 17th floor. Then I enter my house and told my mom about it.  I didn't dare to leave house the next day because he knows exactly where I live.

Another short one. I just left house early morning and there was this banglah construction worker digging soil. When I walked into his view, he literally dropped his spade and stare at me. So as I walk from the left, pass him and then to the right, his eyes followed from the left to the right. He was staring like a psycho and the way he dropped his spade looks like those horror movies where he's about to attack. Sorry, not racist.

  Because recently I'm been so bothered emotionally that everything other than the mental state of my mind isn't affecting me much. I became numb to a lot of things like I don't give a damn because it's not that important when you mind is fucked up. I wasn't even afraid of ghosts and I went home after 12 every day...