SO STAND A LIL TALLER
Okay i'm rubbing my eyes like mad as i'm typing this. Eyes feeling super heavy but tonight is those nights where i really wanna blog. As i'm typing, i'm wondering what horrible sentence structures i've got. Here it goes.
PartOne.
So, i'm the b!tch here now. GOD. tian ah. head pain back pain stomach pain legs pain everywhere pain. Just found out some things today. and... I could hold it all when i was outside, all the way till i reached home. It's like boom, everything hits me. It felt like PMS out of control but maybe it really was. Thinking of it, it really was my fault. Like, i am the source or cause or something around that. I should have kept my distance. Thinking about the fact that I didn't, i just make me feel totally like a SLU*(i don't wanna ruin my blog with these words). And the PMS lead on, i totally started blaming myself. An angry Cancer just sleeps. But i couldn't. I COULDN'T SLEEP WTS. Sleeping has never been a problem for me. I was so frustrated, not knowing what to do. No one i could talk to. It's the I want someone to tell me it's not my fault, yet i don't wanna tell anyone about what happened kind of feeling. I FEEL SO IMMATURE LIKE OH HELL NO. going through this stage of life, probably look back one day later and laugh at myself. In the end, i confided to BroFist, who made me feel a little better. So much for being bros, you guys rock :) People think the strong falls the hardest because they've been strong for so long, but didn't you realise? It's all the work of the mind sometimes. We tell our brain things that we want it to do. People say how torturous it is to fake a smile, hurting inside but looking so strong. But what if we start thinking it this way? It's okay, it's not that bad, life goes on, things will go well. It no longer sounds as fake as 'forcing a smile' right? it sounds like, 'resilience'.
Back to routine blogging. Started my day at hougang stadium. ran 2 rounds around the stadium, and met up with ellen for stretchinggggg. She's forcing me to do oversplits to let gravity train me for a perfects split. & i swear I'm really all out to train my flexibility, hurts worst than anything any piercings whatever so. However, all is worth when i see myself visibly improving. Walked to school (HS) to pass my guide books, TYS, textbooks to juniors. Ate tom yam in school like a loner but today was the 'i don't care if u are judging me' day! ;) I feel good because I am appreciated by my juniors :D Next, went hougang mall to clear some HDB bills and library to borrow some books. Head to NanYangJC to ask about the appeal, but was sent off with a lot of 'i'm not really sure about this, just wait to be contacted.' Rushed over to scape, had dance practice for a show this Friday at Raffles Place! Learnt Kara Jumping and SNSD the boys (totally like re-learned it cause the version was very different, super confusing). Met new dance friends. Today's dance didn't turn out as good as how i expected it to be. Really slack, don't like. But i did have an enjoyable time talking to ZongYi the whole day :D
Headed home, kevink and joshen came. Went down NTUC and bought ingredients. We're gonna make ice cream! :D The procedures were rather simple, but it was the measurements that got us to put on our thinking caps. I did not own a measuring flask so we calculated most things by tablespoons and teaspoons. I was concentrating so hard to get my 36 tablespoons of sugar right! While waiting for it to chill in the freezer, we became keyboard warriors and started TROLLING people (on facebook chats cause a lot weird people talk to me hahah). Feel a little bad, but it's damn funny. Eg, A: (blahblahblah, u got boyfriend?) US: (blahblahblah, u got girlfriend?) A: (blahblahblah, i'm single). US: (blahblahblah, i'm double). Basically we just throw whatever that guy say to me (us) back to him! After that kevink was zi-high-ing and spamming my twitter with retarded tweets. Like, pikachu kiss stitch become stitachu! These two guys always make me laugh like a mad woman. HAHA, i totally have no image infront of my best bros! But it doesn't matter, it's the fun we have that counts! So, the duration that they stayed wasn't enough to witness the success of the ice cream! Gonna deliver to them once it's completed! :D
So, here's the end of my crazy day. So fun but somehow when you're having fun, u don't even have time to take photos, right? ;)
14 Jan.
Skipped work today. I was aching badly and couldn't image myself carrying oval tray! Went to bugis and scape shopping with Colleen & Darren today! :D Darren is like poking my bag each time he sees leopard print stuffs! I know i do like leopard print but i'm not crazy over it. Went home super late like 10+ 11 (not the latest time we left scape!), but it's still super late because we were waiting for the custom made friendship bracelet! :)
Went home and figured out it's time for me to pack my books and tidy up my stuffs since it's confirmed i don't have to retake 'O's!
To be dumped, donated and passed on ;)
12 Jan.
Woke up to nothing, feeling a little empty. Slacked a little longer in bed before heading to bugis. Just wanted to get a planner and that's exactly what i got :)
11 Jan.
Went for NYJC AND SRJC open house with CalvinHia & YangHan. Damn, i really wish i can get into NYJC. After that went TP to find Darren & YiJian for the psychology talk. Walked down the convention hall and realised a lot of courses actually interests me. I'm like interested and curious about everything! I am happy today because i look lika cool dude wearing Darren's cap! No idea why we all suddenly went Scape after that. Darren's cousin came and she kept talking to me cause she calls me the more decisive one. Bought my dream catcher necklace. After unprepared shopping, went to have dinner at Seoul Garden, Cineleisure. Darren's treat! :D
PartOne.
So, i'm the b!tch here now. GOD. tian ah. head pain back pain stomach pain legs pain everywhere pain. Just found out some things today. and... I could hold it all when i was outside, all the way till i reached home. It's like boom, everything hits me. It felt like PMS out of control but maybe it really was. Thinking of it, it really was my fault. Like, i am the source or cause or something around that. I should have kept my distance. Thinking about the fact that I didn't, i just make me feel totally like a SLU*(i don't wanna ruin my blog with these words). And the PMS lead on, i totally started blaming myself. An angry Cancer just sleeps. But i couldn't. I COULDN'T SLEEP WTS. Sleeping has never been a problem for me. I was so frustrated, not knowing what to do. No one i could talk to. It's the I want someone to tell me it's not my fault, yet i don't wanna tell anyone about what happened kind of feeling. I FEEL SO IMMATURE LIKE OH HELL NO. going through this stage of life, probably look back one day later and laugh at myself. In the end, i confided to BroFist, who made me feel a little better. So much for being bros, you guys rock :) People think the strong falls the hardest because they've been strong for so long, but didn't you realise? It's all the work of the mind sometimes. We tell our brain things that we want it to do. People say how torturous it is to fake a smile, hurting inside but looking so strong. But what if we start thinking it this way? It's okay, it's not that bad, life goes on, things will go well. It no longer sounds as fake as 'forcing a smile' right? it sounds like, 'resilience'.
Back to routine blogging. Started my day at hougang stadium. ran 2 rounds around the stadium, and met up with ellen for stretchinggggg. She's forcing me to do oversplits to let gravity train me for a perfects split. & i swear I'm really all out to train my flexibility, hurts worst than anything any piercings whatever so. However, all is worth when i see myself visibly improving. Walked to school (HS) to pass my guide books, TYS, textbooks to juniors. Ate tom yam in school like a loner but today was the 'i don't care if u are judging me' day! ;) I feel good because I am appreciated by my juniors :D Next, went hougang mall to clear some HDB bills and library to borrow some books. Head to NanYangJC to ask about the appeal, but was sent off with a lot of 'i'm not really sure about this, just wait to be contacted.' Rushed over to scape, had dance practice for a show this Friday at Raffles Place! Learnt Kara Jumping and SNSD the boys (totally like re-learned it cause the version was very different, super confusing). Met new dance friends. Today's dance didn't turn out as good as how i expected it to be. Really slack, don't like. But i did have an enjoyable time talking to ZongYi the whole day :D
Headed home, kevink and joshen came. Went down NTUC and bought ingredients. We're gonna make ice cream! :D The procedures were rather simple, but it was the measurements that got us to put on our thinking caps. I did not own a measuring flask so we calculated most things by tablespoons and teaspoons. I was concentrating so hard to get my 36 tablespoons of sugar right! While waiting for it to chill in the freezer, we became keyboard warriors and started TROLLING people (on facebook chats cause a lot weird people talk to me hahah). Feel a little bad, but it's damn funny. Eg, A: (blahblahblah, u got boyfriend?) US: (blahblahblah, u got girlfriend?) A: (blahblahblah, i'm single). US: (blahblahblah, i'm double). Basically we just throw whatever that guy say to me (us) back to him! After that kevink was zi-high-ing and spamming my twitter with retarded tweets. Like, pikachu kiss stitch become stitachu! These two guys always make me laugh like a mad woman. HAHA, i totally have no image infront of my best bros! But it doesn't matter, it's the fun we have that counts! So, the duration that they stayed wasn't enough to witness the success of the ice cream! Gonna deliver to them once it's completed! :D
So, here's the end of my crazy day. So fun but somehow when you're having fun, u don't even have time to take photos, right? ;)
14 Jan.
Skipped work today. I was aching badly and couldn't image myself carrying oval tray! Went to bugis and scape shopping with Colleen & Darren today! :D Darren is like poking my bag each time he sees leopard print stuffs! I know i do like leopard print but i'm not crazy over it. Went home super late like 10+ 11 (not the latest time we left scape!), but it's still super late because we were waiting for the custom made friendship bracelet! :)
13 Jan.
Went for dance today wohoooo! :D It was funny when jacky said 鸟不生蛋 place. I was trying so hard to conceal my laughter cause it reminded me of someone, there that wore the same shirt as me today. (totally hoping you don't read my blog if not it'll be totally embarrassing!). Cabbed over to Lavender for my first Chingay practice, felt like a lost sotong! Missed a few sessions before this and was totally clueless about the steps hahas. But i love it, it's simple but it's chinese dance.
On the MRT home with yulin, saw this couple PDA-ing. The picture explains everything.
Totally disgusted.
Went home and figured out it's time for me to pack my books and tidy up my stuffs since it's confirmed i don't have to retake 'O's!
To be dumped, donated and passed on ;)
Woke up to nothing, feeling a little empty. Slacked a little longer in bed before heading to bugis. Just wanted to get a planner and that's exactly what i got :)
11 Jan.
Went for NYJC AND SRJC open house with CalvinHia & YangHan. Damn, i really wish i can get into NYJC. After that went TP to find Darren & YiJian for the psychology talk. Walked down the convention hall and realised a lot of courses actually interests me. I'm like interested and curious about everything! I am happy today because i look lika cool dude wearing Darren's cap! No idea why we all suddenly went Scape after that. Darren's cousin came and she kept talking to me cause she calls me the more decisive one. Bought my dream catcher necklace. After unprepared shopping, went to have dinner at Seoul Garden, Cineleisure. Darren's treat! :D
Damn damn full after that, luckily this Seoul Garden wasn't the buffet one!
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