Head over Heart

Less than 2 werks to commom test,  but I still wish to type here to get this load off my chest. Today, I officially pon sch because I really didnt feel like going. Doing one of my reflections for late coming,  I wrote: ''showed perseverance as I continue to come to school eeven when I dont feel like coming." Of course,  ms tan made a fuss out of it and keeps wanting to see me every day after morning assembly. You know how dreadful is that? B t what's reflection without a truth. I won't do something like write out all the morally right answers. Because I really showed perseverance in that way even if you think im rude. So, back to me skipping school today.  Went to polyclinic and told them I get headache frequently. The doctor took my temperature and I realised im running a fever. Took my blood pressure and realised I have unusually low BP. So, heres the irony. Anti-depressants causes headache as they block some activities in your brain to prevent you from over ...

  I normally dislike it when people say vulgar, but today.  Fuck it man. Fuck life, fuck you, fuck everything, fuck the world. You know that feeling when you just hate being happy. I dont feel like going school tomorrow, dont feel like facing humans tomorrow. dont feel like smiling, wanna ignore everyone, behave like an introvert. The most hurtful thing is when the person whom u thought u are the closest to, the person whom u put in so much effort, save mmoney just to get the gift. The same person who just told you to go and die. That said im useless, she must learn to love herself more because no one love her. say that need to use Money to make me help her do stuff. Fuck it I didn't even ask you to give me money.  That person who can one day make you feel so loved and thankful to have a mom like her, and the next moment make you feel like you're a curse, the worst thing that has ever happened in her life. I'd rather u ignore me wholesale than this roller coaster of hot a...

Today is such a moody day where I had class to teach. Counting down, today is the second last lesson with them! They suddenly asked me when is keisha coming back and I said in 2 weeks time, apparently cherie was like bye lynette! And marabelle was like huh... so who teaching us? Then I said keisha is coming back to teach u all and everyone started to become moody. I guess its not the fact that keisha is coming back that causes them to be moody but more of because they won't see me anymore! I think I'll really miss this bunch of cuties. I promised them if they behave well I'll come back and visit them :b although I know kids forget and get over things very fast one so they probably won't feel sad after 1 lesson haha! XD okay so this is coming to an end soon, time to put double the effort into my studies.! Yesterday was valentines day and it was a pretty special one. Received so many gifts from my dearest girls from class and dancers. Thanks for the rose wei jie!  ;) ma...

Because I'm the girl that dare not look into your eyes.  I have so many things to tell you, but the moment your gaze reaches me I just feel  Iike damn shy. You're the melody that keeps playing in my head yet I dare not let it show. I even go the extra mile to hide the truth by building up many lies. If I don't move on, this bottled Up feeling will keep haunting me. I care a lot but I have to act like I don't. 只怕我自己会爱上你，不敢让自己靠得太进。 怕我没什么能给你，爱也需要很大的勇气。 依然爱你。 就算风风雨雨，我也想跟你走。

Hello readers. I'm in a relatively good mood today so I've decided to blog :D Maybe I'll just have a short update every weekend to share my joy with everyone. Today, I'm gonna talk about my journey as an instructor teaching kids hiphop. My first few classes was with the serangoon branch kids. It was a overwhelmingly big class and each time I went I felt super stress with all the parents the room. My initial concept was to push and challenge them so my choreography stirred to the rather difficult type for them. Some smarter ones got it, some were just following blindly. It was like an open class kind of thing where I only see them once in a month or so, so there was no follow up. The only kid I bond to was a small boy. Cause his mom forgot about time and didn't pick him up after class. So we just chatted and chatted. He's a very intelligent kid and has all the knowledge for planets that even I'm not aware of. I remember he loves Hershey chocolate :) I...

  Hello readers! (if there's still any...) Since i'm changing to a new laptop and while waiting for all my files to transfer, i've decided to use this chance to blog. (cause i'm too lazy to study meh). I really wish I could blog everyday... if i had the time, I don't even need that Twitter account that is forever limiting my word capacity! Okay, today, let's talk about my ambition. To be a psychiatrist.  I mean okay... I don't know why recently there's a lot of people asking about my ambition. Maybe it's because of the new year visiting, maybe it's because i'm old enough and that's the type of question you get when you're 18. And everyone's reply was the same: "You have to be not affected by your patients because they will tell you very sad stories..." (okay something along this line okay) It's actually saying I have to be relatively emotionally stable. I don't think one can ever be? Since we're ...