Head over Heart

II lost my balance, I was hanging on the cliff, I was so scared, I am so glad, For now I'm up even stronger.  I really feel emotionally better nowadays, more focused and my fatigue was coming purely from the long study hours, with lesser negative thoughts. Keep it for 21 days, without breaking the chain, and it'll turn into a habit. My lesson of this episode is, I was wrong thinking that I must always give my best to everyone, even to people that mattered to me, but I didn't matter to them at all. I must learn to be a little more selfish as I realized no matter how hard I try, it is never enough and it's just wearing me out. I should conserve some energy to love myself more. I should not get so affected by other's opinion. I have to admit that I do love the fact that I feel deeper, all these emotions are really magical even though it also means I hurt deeper. I live by the belief that too much of something is never good, so currently I'm trying to control my emo...

  Hello readers, yes that's a very shameless photo of me in my pyjamas once again (for those who follows me on Instagram you guys should understand). So guess who finally got here naval piercing today, after 3 years of crave. What made me do the sudden decision now? Well you see, I've been dancing non stop for the past 3 years, every during O's and this piercing will not allow me to stretch much for a few months. Hence, isn't a study break the best time to pierce as im totally off my dance commitments now till 53 days later (no I did not countdown everyone's reminding me on insta) the best past of the piercing was actually getting it together with your friend, I got it with Choo today!^^ she wouldn't let me post that photo we took so I have to take that shameless retarded photo plus in the pic we took this afternoon, our navels were red (bleeding) xD  So best deal here! We got our piercing for $65/= at Piercings and Tattos (or is it the other way round) at Far E...

   Then I realized I'm actually fighting to let someone make me feel special. I was deceiving myself my whole life about giving and not expecting return. Indeed, I feel joy to bless someone's day for a few seconds. The tipping point comes when I realized, I'm giving too much of myself to others that I don't even have me for myself. The things I'm wiling to do for my friends, people that I care around me, are far beyond the things that I'm even willing to do for myself. Fortunate they are, but I'm not sustaining anymore because no one's filling that __ (void; happiness, love?) back for me. I used to be able to absorb a little and give a lot more, but as I grew, I guess it's with the problems I face, I still give a lot but I'm wearing myself down.    I'm torn between putting too much effort or not putting any at all. Is it people's fault for this loneliness? Or is it my fault for not letting any one in. I believe it's not just me feelin...

Do you get my title? Think in the lines of... The sun belonging to every one and the warmth it gives us every day .    Hello readers! Blogging cause I'm super talkative and bored. No, I'm not supposed to be bored but when you're at home in the night time and laziness swings in, discipline level is negligible. It's that bad.   Even though I don't have a specific topic I wanna talk about today, I know that as I continue typing, I will eventually typed a whole essay of crap out (which you will eventually finish reading yay!) #1 HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL  I think people should stop being so lonely and try to act too cool to hang out with. Wanted to spend tonight the conventional way, some candles and a lantern, but all my friends all too cool to enjoy that simple moment with me. Am I really that childish, it's really fun, stop lying to yourself tsk. ESP some Singapore guys, I mean a small percentage of them. Seriously, their cocky level is drilling a hole through th...

  hello readers. Sorry for quite an MIA because my computer died on me and currently blogging with my dad's com which i hi-jacked at 2am and it's spacebar is not that sensitive anymore and it's really hard to type. Guess I have to bear with it because I really need to blog now to prevent all these emotions from overwhelming me.   Some friends of mine actually view me as being very judgey because I make always try to reason out everything I observe. Like why are people behaving in a certain way, not so much of commenting on their personality but where their intention is coming from. I know there are still a lot of scenarios and emotions and mindsets that make people do different things and sometimes these things are like pure stupidity but i'm really interested in finding out why. There must be a reason, they must have been guided by a certain mindset. I really love understanding things from different point of views and I dislike talking to people who are stubborn. It...