Saving the last bit of myself, for myself.
Hi readers.
I have been gone for quite some time... from my birthday which is more than a month ago!
For this most recent month, I have been attending camps, teaching and having performances and shows now and then. I guessed I have mentioned this but in case some of you missed it and is curious, I'm in Singapore Management University. Why School/Faculty of social science? Well, the reason is simple. Psychology has always been what I wanted to pursue since Secondary. Back to those days after O Levels where people were clueless of which course in Poly to go, I was deciding between studying Psy in poly or going to the conventional path and making it to the university easier. In JC, I heard about how competitive FASS is and given how unpromising my results were at that point in time, I had a backup plan of going into interior designing. Thankfully, my results were sufficient to bring me into SMU SOCIAL SCIENCE which may not be as prestigious as NUS FASS- some people would like to just think that NUS is the best- I am very happy that I can still pursue my passion.
YES, I have been meeting a lot of new university friends! Despite not going for many camps (I have friends championing with 8-9 camps), I felt equally welcomed into the university. So, I went for FTB (freshman team building) camp run 1 which i got to meet my popz Erudite 3, Starring Camp (CIP camp) which I got to meet my bonded Dauntless Satu and Enigma (SOSCI) camp which I got to meet my very 'genuine' friends HAH JOKING. A lot of people have been asking me the same question, why I didn't attend ARTS camp, I really wanted to but it clashed with my performance.
I don't think I will go in depth of what happened from day 1-3 for each camp but I'll just sum up my overall camp experience and the bonds that have been forged! (HOPEFULLY, I ALWAY WA SO SWEET SO BONDED, SO OHANA BUT PEOPLE ALWAYS DRIFT FROM ME AFTER THAT :()
FTB run 1
I guess being in Run 1 is a blessing. Firstly, you get to use the camping equipments in their best state, the tents, the water filter xD Secondly, you don't have much spoilers to dampen your mood for it. From my friends who were waiting to go for Run 2 and 3, all I've heard is them expressing their unwillingness for the camp (probably from the sharing of freshmen who went for earlier runs). Lastly, people are seldom bonded to their FTB group as other camps will spend more time together in less harsh conditions, but my group is quite bonded as we're each other's first group of uni friends! Also, we won the best group in clan which shows how terrific we were at our games. All wins HAHA! We were all very sporty and I... am very tall xD Was quite fearful of leaving camp for my dance commitments but I really have no trouble making up for the lost time and bonding HAHA. HTHT, first impressions, BFF SHAG MARRY, 7 wonders were all very interesting games that I felt that I've lost touch from the 2 years in JC. It was also very fun to have so many dancers in the group, and company was what made clubbing fun. I still can't comprehend how we managed to get so high without alcohol but it went like the best clubbing experience I've had (apart from the technical error of the music). All in all, I really enjoy my FTB experience and for I guess I'm one of the few people going around telling people to not dread FTB as it was really fun for me! :) Also, really proud that we have so many people in our group running for PAGEANT AND BASH. Wohoo, cheers to the popz group and our faci, shawn and lynn!
Starring Camp, Starring BV (beneficiary visits), Starring Carwash
These loooong 8 days of commitment. Can't believe I've managed to commit to it because for all the camps that i've attended, there is none that I didn't leave throughout the duration of the camp. Hence, this camp included. My first day camp which really feels very different as it is through the HTHT when the night falls that we bond the most. Still managed to bond with a group within the group through our separate dinner sessions. Performed in the the freshie performance for this and did a waacking solo :) Honestly, I didn't feel very close to them during the first 3 days of camp. However, the subsequent beneficially visits to nursing homes, IMH and kids childcare made us work in smaller groups with different people each time and I had a more personal feeling. Unsurprisingly, I love volunteer work and the initial 4 out of 6 BVS to fulfilled became a full mark attendance, 6 out of 6 :D I especially love working with the kids, these few days of visitings has opened up a lot of forgotten/ new insights in my life. Very very thankful for everything that we have. I'm also inspired to set up a dance therapy school in the future where I can fuse what I major in: Psychology with my passion: Dance. HAHA, SO MUCH INSIGHTS ABOUT LIFE. carwash was the highlight of this whole journey. Had a lot of fun washing cars, getting soaked and burnt by the sun!
ENIGMA
This group of people that i met is really different. Maybe because we're all sosci students, we connect emotionally, we're especially sensitive of other people's feelings and we play mind games. The mind games is really level 100, the lying and not lying... >< Spent the second day of camp at Sentosa again, like STARRING. Pretty not bad, whenever i'm in touch with the sand or sea i'll feel especially at peace. Had finale night, it was cool because I danced with Desirene and Shantelle from SR! I think we totally rocked the stage yay! As we have a really small group of 7 people, and a some was away from camp during this and that period of time, i really bonded more individually with them than as a group. Happy that I finally met SOSCI friends because SOSCI students are RARE, I'm always the only one in my whole camp group!
Dance updates, every Tuesday I'm teaching at K-Pop 8:30pm - 9:30pm at Dance Factory @ Sembawang, Wednesday morning BHPS for PAL creative movements, Friday the cherie hearts teachers @ Bedok Reservoir. Other than that, every Wednesday I go for Mega Crew training 8:30pm - 9:30pm at DF @ Pioneer, Saturday I take Ballet grade 7 @ HGCC and at night I have Ryezal's concert training @ Sembawang 8:30pm 9:30pm, Sunday I take waacking class and crew training at DF @ YCK. SUNDAY DOESN'T END, i actually have HWGM practice in the morning @ PA, Lavender and concert training for my lyrical item at 2:30pm starting next week!
Really trying to plan the lyrical jazz classes, monday 8:30pm- 9:30pm and thursday Reggae 8:30pm - 9:30pm @ O School into my schedule, really wanna improve!
Out of dance, I have piano every Monday 2pm - 3pm. Can you even grasp hold of what's going on in my life? It's okay, I can't too.
Thats the reason why i'm very hesitant in joining Emix. I actually wanted to join Indancity, I still want to join a lot, more than Emix, but I'm not very confident of passing the auditions and the trainings clashes with DF's commitments... But even if I go for Emix, my timing is already so pack and I'm taking 5 mods this sem how do I still have time to manage my studies? :(
I still believe that everything will work out somehow, we don't really have to think so hard and so much about the how it's gonna work out but just believe it definitely will, like how it always does! :)
I'm officially starting school tomorrow, are you excited??? I'M SOOOOOO NOT. cheers to monday morning class.
I'm sorry I gotta keep my distance from now on. I can no longer act like it doesn't affect me at all, as it's hurting me too much now. I really don't wanna get affected by this type of things. I need to be on ultra focus mode, work efficiently and balance all the things on my plate. As much as I love to have you as a painful distraction, I'm not gonna allow myself to fall further. As much as I do not want our memories to fade into nothing, I can't talk to you acting like it doesn't hurt at all. I not only have to act like it doesn't affect me in front of you, I have to convince myself that I'm least affected so that I can carry on with the things in my life. That being said, I hope my head will not lose this war again. Or my irrationality is gonna start talking to you again.
I have been gone for quite some time... from my birthday which is more than a month ago!
For this most recent month, I have been attending camps, teaching and having performances and shows now and then. I guessed I have mentioned this but in case some of you missed it and is curious, I'm in Singapore Management University. Why School/Faculty of social science? Well, the reason is simple. Psychology has always been what I wanted to pursue since Secondary. Back to those days after O Levels where people were clueless of which course in Poly to go, I was deciding between studying Psy in poly or going to the conventional path and making it to the university easier. In JC, I heard about how competitive FASS is and given how unpromising my results were at that point in time, I had a backup plan of going into interior designing. Thankfully, my results were sufficient to bring me into SMU SOCIAL SCIENCE which may not be as prestigious as NUS FASS- some people would like to just think that NUS is the best- I am very happy that I can still pursue my passion.
YES, I have been meeting a lot of new university friends! Despite not going for many camps (I have friends championing with 8-9 camps), I felt equally welcomed into the university. So, I went for FTB (freshman team building) camp run 1 which i got to meet my popz Erudite 3, Starring Camp (CIP camp) which I got to meet my bonded Dauntless Satu and Enigma (SOSCI) camp which I got to meet my very 'genuine' friends HAH JOKING. A lot of people have been asking me the same question, why I didn't attend ARTS camp, I really wanted to but it clashed with my performance.
I don't think I will go in depth of what happened from day 1-3 for each camp but I'll just sum up my overall camp experience and the bonds that have been forged! (HOPEFULLY, I ALWAY WA SO SWEET SO BONDED, SO OHANA BUT PEOPLE ALWAYS DRIFT FROM ME AFTER THAT :()
FTB run 1
I guess being in Run 1 is a blessing. Firstly, you get to use the camping equipments in their best state, the tents, the water filter xD Secondly, you don't have much spoilers to dampen your mood for it. From my friends who were waiting to go for Run 2 and 3, all I've heard is them expressing their unwillingness for the camp (probably from the sharing of freshmen who went for earlier runs). Lastly, people are seldom bonded to their FTB group as other camps will spend more time together in less harsh conditions, but my group is quite bonded as we're each other's first group of uni friends! Also, we won the best group in clan which shows how terrific we were at our games. All wins HAHA! We were all very sporty and I... am very tall xD Was quite fearful of leaving camp for my dance commitments but I really have no trouble making up for the lost time and bonding HAHA. HTHT, first impressions, BFF SHAG MARRY, 7 wonders were all very interesting games that I felt that I've lost touch from the 2 years in JC. It was also very fun to have so many dancers in the group, and company was what made clubbing fun. I still can't comprehend how we managed to get so high without alcohol but it went like the best clubbing experience I've had (apart from the technical error of the music). All in all, I really enjoy my FTB experience and for I guess I'm one of the few people going around telling people to not dread FTB as it was really fun for me! :) Also, really proud that we have so many people in our group running for PAGEANT AND BASH. Wohoo, cheers to the popz group and our faci, shawn and lynn!
Starring Camp, Starring BV (beneficiary visits), Starring Carwash
These loooong 8 days of commitment. Can't believe I've managed to commit to it because for all the camps that i've attended, there is none that I didn't leave throughout the duration of the camp. Hence, this camp included. My first day camp which really feels very different as it is through the HTHT when the night falls that we bond the most. Still managed to bond with a group within the group through our separate dinner sessions. Performed in the the freshie performance for this and did a waacking solo :) Honestly, I didn't feel very close to them during the first 3 days of camp. However, the subsequent beneficially visits to nursing homes, IMH and kids childcare made us work in smaller groups with different people each time and I had a more personal feeling. Unsurprisingly, I love volunteer work and the initial 4 out of 6 BVS to fulfilled became a full mark attendance, 6 out of 6 :D I especially love working with the kids, these few days of visitings has opened up a lot of forgotten/ new insights in my life. Very very thankful for everything that we have. I'm also inspired to set up a dance therapy school in the future where I can fuse what I major in: Psychology with my passion: Dance. HAHA, SO MUCH INSIGHTS ABOUT LIFE. carwash was the highlight of this whole journey. Had a lot of fun washing cars, getting soaked and burnt by the sun!
ENIGMA
This group of people that i met is really different. Maybe because we're all sosci students, we connect emotionally, we're especially sensitive of other people's feelings and we play mind games. The mind games is really level 100, the lying and not lying... >< Spent the second day of camp at Sentosa again, like STARRING. Pretty not bad, whenever i'm in touch with the sand or sea i'll feel especially at peace. Had finale night, it was cool because I danced with Desirene and Shantelle from SR! I think we totally rocked the stage yay! As we have a really small group of 7 people, and a some was away from camp during this and that period of time, i really bonded more individually with them than as a group. Happy that I finally met SOSCI friends because SOSCI students are RARE, I'm always the only one in my whole camp group!
Dance updates, every Tuesday I'm teaching at K-Pop 8:30pm - 9:30pm at Dance Factory @ Sembawang, Wednesday morning BHPS for PAL creative movements, Friday the cherie hearts teachers @ Bedok Reservoir. Other than that, every Wednesday I go for Mega Crew training 8:30pm - 9:30pm at DF @ Pioneer, Saturday I take Ballet grade 7 @ HGCC and at night I have Ryezal's concert training @ Sembawang 8:30pm 9:30pm, Sunday I take waacking class and crew training at DF @ YCK. SUNDAY DOESN'T END, i actually have HWGM practice in the morning @ PA, Lavender and concert training for my lyrical item at 2:30pm starting next week!
Really trying to plan the lyrical jazz classes, monday 8:30pm- 9:30pm and thursday Reggae 8:30pm - 9:30pm @ O School into my schedule, really wanna improve!
Out of dance, I have piano every Monday 2pm - 3pm. Can you even grasp hold of what's going on in my life? It's okay, I can't too.
Thats the reason why i'm very hesitant in joining Emix. I actually wanted to join Indancity, I still want to join a lot, more than Emix, but I'm not very confident of passing the auditions and the trainings clashes with DF's commitments... But even if I go for Emix, my timing is already so pack and I'm taking 5 mods this sem how do I still have time to manage my studies? :(
I still believe that everything will work out somehow, we don't really have to think so hard and so much about the how it's gonna work out but just believe it definitely will, like how it always does! :)
I'm officially starting school tomorrow, are you excited??? I'M SOOOOOO NOT. cheers to monday morning class.
I'm sorry I gotta keep my distance from now on. I can no longer act like it doesn't affect me at all, as it's hurting me too much now. I really don't wanna get affected by this type of things. I need to be on ultra focus mode, work efficiently and balance all the things on my plate. As much as I love to have you as a painful distraction, I'm not gonna allow myself to fall further. As much as I do not want our memories to fade into nothing, I can't talk to you acting like it doesn't hurt at all. I not only have to act like it doesn't affect me in front of you, I have to convince myself that I'm least affected so that I can carry on with the things in my life. That being said, I hope my head will not lose this war again. Or my irrationality is gonna start talking to you again.
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