headless rants
hi readers
I currently hate school, and soon I will hate life.
If this continues I'm gonna go back to my JC state ARGH.
Monday: School 8:15-11:30pm
Teach dance 7:30pm - 8:30pm
Tuesday: Counseling session 11am - 1+pm (for some personal reasons that my mom is forcing me to go and I need to go if not she'll threaten to commit suicide like yet again)
Don't be shocked i'm painfully bluntly honest and open in my blog
Proj meeting 3-6pm
teach dance 8:30pm - 9:30pm
Wednesday: School 8:15am- 11:30am
Indancity 7:30pm - 8:30pm
Thursday: School 12pm - 3:30pm
Friday: School 8:15am - 11:30am
School 12pm - 3:30pm
Project meeting 3:30pm - 6pm
Teach dance 7pm- 8pm
Saturday: Ballet 10:45am - 12:30pm
Indancity 2pm - 5pm
YNDA concert training 9pm - 10pm
Sunday: YNDA concert training 2:30pm - 3:30pm
Waacking class 4:30pm - 5:30pm
Inter classs 5:30pm - 6:30pm
DFS crew training 6:45pm - 8pm
And the Mega crew and ALL STARS crew trainings that i'm unable to every wednesday 7:30pm - 8:30pm and 9:30pm - 10:30pm
And the many unplanned project meetings that are coming since STATS project, SOCIO project and VUCA projects are falling in.
The random saturdays that we have to come back for make-up classes or mid term examinations.
All the public holidays that whole day is used for DF YNDA Main Comm. Meeting.
Can you image I was training for the PULSE competition with a schedule like this and we had practics every night(thrice a week for first 2 weeks and every night on last week) ? I.e. after my class teaching, lasting up till late night, after midnight.
the remaining time includes eating, shitting, bathing, sleeping, studying, choreographing dance for my classes, nua-ing (including the time i'm taking to type this), planning my activities and schedule, the endless admin work as a instructor and main comm Technical and Media crew IC, and replying to only relevant whatsapp messages (not even having the time to chat much) and maybe going out with friends (if i can find time, maybe short 2 hour meet up that I can afford in-between each day), relief random classes for other instructors, random workshops, performances and competitions (which there is one more to come, CHOOM (NgeeAnn KpopCon)).
Can you just picture how overwhelmed my mind is dealing with all these stuffs plus the need to stabilize my mom's emotions and the ability to ignore the violence of my dad to my mom and I and a non-existance feeling of home except for my pikachu who's like the only person that I can rely on.
This is all, KTHXBYE as I will return to my statistics pre-readings before class at 8am tomorrow.
Time check: Sunday 11:38pm.
To do list before I can sleep: STATS pre-reading
SOCIOLOGY slides (involves pre-reading an entire chapter 20 pages of bloody wordy text)
Settling the workshop stuffs (I'm probably just gonna ignore this and solve it when I have the energy tomorrow morning. This is the major cause of my unhappiness and headache tonight UGH.)
I currently hate school, and soon I will hate life.
If this continues I'm gonna go back to my JC state ARGH.
Monday: School 8:15-11:30pm
Teach dance 7:30pm - 8:30pm
Tuesday: Counseling session 11am - 1+pm (for some personal reasons that my mom is forcing me to go and I need to go if not she'll threaten to commit suicide like yet again)
Don't be shocked i'm painfully bluntly honest and open in my blog
Proj meeting 3-6pm
teach dance 8:30pm - 9:30pm
Wednesday: School 8:15am- 11:30am
Indancity 7:30pm - 8:30pm
Thursday: School 12pm - 3:30pm
Friday: School 8:15am - 11:30am
School 12pm - 3:30pm
Project meeting 3:30pm - 6pm
Teach dance 7pm- 8pm
Saturday: Ballet 10:45am - 12:30pm
Indancity 2pm - 5pm
YNDA concert training 9pm - 10pm
Sunday: YNDA concert training 2:30pm - 3:30pm
Waacking class 4:30pm - 5:30pm
Inter classs 5:30pm - 6:30pm
DFS crew training 6:45pm - 8pm
And the Mega crew and ALL STARS crew trainings that i'm unable to every wednesday 7:30pm - 8:30pm and 9:30pm - 10:30pm
And the many unplanned project meetings that are coming since STATS project, SOCIO project and VUCA projects are falling in.
The random saturdays that we have to come back for make-up classes or mid term examinations.
All the public holidays that whole day is used for DF YNDA Main Comm. Meeting.
Can you image I was training for the PULSE competition with a schedule like this and we had practics every night(thrice a week for first 2 weeks and every night on last week) ? I.e. after my class teaching, lasting up till late night, after midnight.
the remaining time includes eating, shitting, bathing, sleeping, studying, choreographing dance for my classes, nua-ing (including the time i'm taking to type this), planning my activities and schedule, the endless admin work as a instructor and main comm Technical and Media crew IC, and replying to only relevant whatsapp messages (not even having the time to chat much) and maybe going out with friends (if i can find time, maybe short 2 hour meet up that I can afford in-between each day), relief random classes for other instructors, random workshops, performances and competitions (which there is one more to come, CHOOM (NgeeAnn KpopCon)).
Can you just picture how overwhelmed my mind is dealing with all these stuffs plus the need to stabilize my mom's emotions and the ability to ignore the violence of my dad to my mom and I and a non-existance feeling of home except for my pikachu who's like the only person that I can rely on.
This is all, KTHXBYE as I will return to my statistics pre-readings before class at 8am tomorrow.
Time check: Sunday 11:38pm.
To do list before I can sleep: STATS pre-reading
SOCIOLOGY slides (involves pre-reading an entire chapter 20 pages of bloody wordy text)
Settling the workshop stuffs (I'm probably just gonna ignore this and solve it when I have the energy tomorrow morning. This is the major cause of my unhappiness and headache tonight UGH.)
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