I'M STILL HERE!

Hello readers.

Its D-4 to finals and ... I haven't touched my books at all SAVE ME T_T

Was so busy with my dance commitments and after that I just crashed and crashed (been sleeping alot).. and times when I'm awake I realise I have so much backend dance administrative stuffs to settle for concert being an instructor.

A lot people ask me how I do it, or like it's so crazy, or like you look so shag like you just finish a field camp haha~ But honestly I'm doing it with lots of sacrifice, especially my sleep and health. And maybe the quality of work. Doing a lot of things but not necessary doing very well. Like I would say for my studies, I'm averaging (I really wasn't aiming high in the first place) because it isn't my priority and I just wanna do the best that I can given what time I have left outside of my other commitments :)

Also, theres dating time hehe which I absolutely love and look forward to every time :D
Trying to at least clear all my dance commitments so that I can start studying tmr! (It drags on day by day...)

Also, have been pondering about future and stuffs (Is it age 20 crisis).. and questioning myself about my previous decision to become a dance instructor. What's in for me and what's not... how I'm thinking of spending 1-2 years after graduation to just travel and dance. My rationale being: I'm gonna freaking work for the next 30 years of my life what wrong is there to just take a YOLO moment for 1-2 years LOL
Reconsidering my dance teaching career because I wanna venture more into being a professional performer, meaning being really good in my craft than getting myself so preoccupied with all the classes. Financially very rewarding but the time is really too little for me to do any more training and personal development.

Thats all the thoughts~~


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

2 months + post breakup

 It's crazy that time just keeps passing. I realise that we don't really share that much memories together and when I keep replaying and replaying, the recorder runs through very quickly. There's only so 'much' experiences that we shared together. We were together for almost 3 months... and now we're separated for almost the duration of us being together. And it's crazy that time is going to keep passing and the time spent being away from you would start becoming longer and longer compared to the time that we had. Recently I'm into this sadness. Not the great depression but just deep, but not heavy, sadness. To pinpoint it exactly, I miss you. I'm not sure what I'm missing. The memory of us or you. I am no longer extremely curious about how are you or how's your life, but many things still remind me of you non stop day to day and instead of sadness... where it's something I lost, it's ... longing for something I can never have. I have...
Read more

现在的我快不快乐

Image
These few days have been having really bad insomnia, lika now.. and the medicines i already took twice the dosage doesnt work :( Monday: Ronnie's hiphop beg, mega love his style and groove and just rockin' the basics. Tuesday: clarice's lyrical jazz beg and gin's hiphop intermediate. There is a reason why i stir away from contemporary/ lyrical jazz for quite awhile despite being crazily passionate just months ago... To be honest, it's due to me leaving Indancity. From being an almost untrained contemp dancer, steppng out of my comfort zone and pushing myself hard every class, how each time my body just cant get used to the intensity of the class but i told myself only through pain i will grow, till i can comfortaby do double pirouettes, fall down in a routine, and keep trying till i get it no matter how dumb i may look at the start, i told myself i just have to try double, triple the effort and i wouldnt be that far away too. Looking forward to indancity before ...
Read more

F O C U S P A R T 1 {P U N K}

Image
Introducing punk: ARE YOU A PUNK OR A POSER? I call punk a set of beliefs which guides your way of life, more than the clothing you wear. The word punk originates from music, and it is defined by its lyrics and attitude. As punks usually have a more deviant attitude, it shows in their dressing style as well. Popular culture comes in: some celebrity picks it up and turns it into a trend, causing everyone to follow that certain blue hair. These people, are then called posers because they are trying to be cool by playing punk. Proud to say, I'm both a punk and a poser. Punk rock music follower? Checked. Give credits to a rock band man instead of synchronised digital wavelengths yo. They may say the world of music is one but a good band still sets the bar. They are the kind of music you wanna rock your head to in a party. Poser? Yes I do dress a certain way to achieve a certain vibe but I gotta say that's 90% from my attitude. After scanning a whole range of nude, paste...
Read more