2019 SUMMARY!
Set new year resolutions; lose track of them on the way; and go back to them at the end of the year for some reflection.
Hey everyone!
Since 2019 is ending in 4 days, I figured I'll quickly bump myself in and write a short (?) post. I really lost touch with this blogging thing, I used to be able to start typing and just go on and on into a full wordy page but now I'm actually thinking of what to write to fill up this space.
So I went back to read on my goals for 2019, which was going slow and appreciating the art of doing nothing. I am proud to say that I have really achieved that this year. Besides the annual end of year busy with performance stuffs, my life in general has slowed down numerous folds and I find myself spending much more time alone at home to rest my mind and my heart.
Currently, I'm doing my internship at an Autism- Focused School for 6 months and I'm really excited for this fresh and new journey to come. Dance has been wearing me out a little. Hence in 2020, I actually want to focus more on my career, it is the first time in a long while, I actually really wanna excel in something (outside of dance). So I'm gonna take this seriously, try my best and hopefully attain some results!
I'm been trying out on new relationships with people, going on dates, downloading and deleting dating apps, going round and round.. Then I watched this video of a lady sharing, and i realised she's right. We are all just lonely, that's why we look for all these simple instant gratifications, with low commitments that we can switch it on when its bored and switch it off when it gets too overwhelming. As you know I love having open conversations, listening to different point of views especially of those vastly different from mine. So if you happen to read this, what's your take on this? I guess we are just rational beings trying to make SENSE out of everything but I'd like to take the approach that it's not always head over heart or heart over head. When we let our frontal lobe be in charge too much, we need to pull ourselves back and remind ourselves that not everything has a sense to make. Most of the things that doesn't make sense is probably because there are toooooo many factors that it is impossible to take into account for. And vice versa, if you ever find yourself being too impulsive.. emotional (me most of the time LMAO). For me I try to hang out with people who are more rational and try to adopt the way they think and do stuffs :b
Also, it's been a year since I've graduated and I miss studying!!! Not the actual mugging for exams part but I miss being fed with new knowledge constantly and feeling like I became a more educated part of society. JK haha
In 2019, my 3 biggest takeaways are:
1) nothing is more important than self- care. This year I have really spent so much more time alone and appreciate alone time, rest time so much more. Even though I can’t help feeling a little guilty for idling, I’m still trying to find the balance!
2) Ive learnt to stop trying so hard to please everyone. That I’m not that nice in reality and I definitely have the right to be pissed off at people and not be so understanding :b
3) learning to let my guard down, letting friends and loved ones in. Telling myself that it is okay to ask for help and be vulnerable. And actually trusting people :’) because I’m hell stubborn on priding myself as being independent and not needing any help 🌚
Now, let me briefly fill you in on what happened on the second half of my 2019. Basically Instagram and Blogger acts like a cross check and i go between platforms to recap the events/ milestones that happened in my life.
First up, my constant gang gang from DWZ! Realitea~ Felt super FOMO that I couldn't participate S24 with them cause i'm an alumni... but it's a really fresh and good experience being amongst the audience and watching watching your friends kill it on stage! YAS
Then the whole gang went to crash Izzy's birthday party! Happy birthday to the sweet girl who always go out of the way for her friends :)
Went back to join the Ignition Senior Showcase item as an alumni and got to train and learn under my fav instructor Hua and dance with these amazing cuties again :) Having danced for so many years, such feelings of being genuinely happy and enjoying dance because of the people is really precious.
YOLO-ed and flew ourselves to sunshine coast, Australia for Upgrade Dance Competition finals. Bearing the full cost fo the flights and accommodation. But it was a stage that I will never forget because it meant so much to everyone of us on stage. Pain is inevitable, we seek ways to cover our pain. But our relationship makes it all worthwhile. This one goes out to Kenneth, our crewmate. We hope the sun is shining wherever you are. Pain is inevitable, dance is our therapy.
After which we had some simple activities on our own. Sightseeing, thrift shopping and lots of eating. Covered Gold Coast and Brisbane too!
Another year dancing with the OLD STARS!
HSM FAM!
Hey everyone!
Since 2019 is ending in 4 days, I figured I'll quickly bump myself in and write a short (?) post. I really lost touch with this blogging thing, I used to be able to start typing and just go on and on into a full wordy page but now I'm actually thinking of what to write to fill up this space.
So I went back to read on my goals for 2019, which was going slow and appreciating the art of doing nothing. I am proud to say that I have really achieved that this year. Besides the annual end of year busy with performance stuffs, my life in general has slowed down numerous folds and I find myself spending much more time alone at home to rest my mind and my heart.
Currently, I'm doing my internship at an Autism- Focused School for 6 months and I'm really excited for this fresh and new journey to come. Dance has been wearing me out a little. Hence in 2020, I actually want to focus more on my career, it is the first time in a long while, I actually really wanna excel in something (outside of dance). So I'm gonna take this seriously, try my best and hopefully attain some results!
I'm been trying out on new relationships with people, going on dates, downloading and deleting dating apps, going round and round.. Then I watched this video of a lady sharing, and i realised she's right. We are all just lonely, that's why we look for all these simple instant gratifications, with low commitments that we can switch it on when its bored and switch it off when it gets too overwhelming. As you know I love having open conversations, listening to different point of views especially of those vastly different from mine. So if you happen to read this, what's your take on this? I guess we are just rational beings trying to make SENSE out of everything but I'd like to take the approach that it's not always head over heart or heart over head. When we let our frontal lobe be in charge too much, we need to pull ourselves back and remind ourselves that not everything has a sense to make. Most of the things that doesn't make sense is probably because there are toooooo many factors that it is impossible to take into account for. And vice versa, if you ever find yourself being too impulsive.. emotional (me most of the time LMAO). For me I try to hang out with people who are more rational and try to adopt the way they think and do stuffs :b
Also, it's been a year since I've graduated and I miss studying!!! Not the actual mugging for exams part but I miss being fed with new knowledge constantly and feeling like I became a more educated part of society. JK haha
In 2019, my 3 biggest takeaways are:
1) nothing is more important than self- care. This year I have really spent so much more time alone and appreciate alone time, rest time so much more. Even though I can’t help feeling a little guilty for idling, I’m still trying to find the balance!
2) Ive learnt to stop trying so hard to please everyone. That I’m not that nice in reality and I definitely have the right to be pissed off at people and not be so understanding :b
3) learning to let my guard down, letting friends and loved ones in. Telling myself that it is okay to ask for help and be vulnerable. And actually trusting people :’) because I’m hell stubborn on priding myself as being independent and not needing any help 🌚
Now, let me briefly fill you in on what happened on the second half of my 2019. Basically Instagram and Blogger acts like a cross check and i go between platforms to recap the events/ milestones that happened in my life.
First up, my constant gang gang from DWZ! Realitea~ Felt super FOMO that I couldn't participate S24 with them cause i'm an alumni... but it's a really fresh and good experience being amongst the audience and watching watching your friends kill it on stage! YAS
Then the fateful day came where we had to send shreya sis off back to India :( GOT SO CLOSE TO HER WITHIN THIS 1 YEAR ++ TO THE POINT WHERE I COULD SHARE ALMOST EVERYTHING WITH HER. I MISS YOU SO MUCH SIS :(
Then the whole gang went to crash Izzy's birthday party! Happy birthday to the sweet girl who always go out of the way for her friends :)
Went back to join the Ignition Senior Showcase item as an alumni and got to train and learn under my fav instructor Hua and dance with these amazing cuties again :) Having danced for so many years, such feelings of being genuinely happy and enjoying dance because of the people is really precious.
You know that for these kind of Halloween Horror Night, the company is really important because the tickets are so bloody expensive. Really wouldn't have been fun and wouldn't have went if not for the company!<: nbsp="" p="">
Recently, Col has became quite a fitspo and she keeps jioing me out for yogas and hikes hahha. It's a big and good change now I'm the one thats being dragged out by her for these outdoor activities! My first time to MacRitchie tree top walk! On a national day... and we had to queue to get in (truly living the Singaporean spirit).
Celebrating my Bae's 24th birthday!! Shower each other with bouquets has been our trend now. I think we set the bar so high that no future boyfriends can ever match it now :b HAHAH
Also, celebrated LELE's 23rd!! Another long friendship that I really hold dear to my heart! x3x3x3
Also hanging out every now and then with LINGLYNDON and awaiting our 2022 trip to Japan! (this photo was a dare i'm not usually like that, HAH!)
Celebrated the November babies birthday! Dearest sisters Keisha and Ashleigh, two of the most inspirational women in my life!
This was August DTS with my babies, in collaboration with Bishan CC, we were part of their national day event! :D
After which we had some simple activities on our own. Sightseeing, thrift shopping and lots of eating. Covered Gold Coast and Brisbane too!
Tried to overcome my fear of heights and rollercoaster at Movie World. I really went crazy with the screaming and it was sooo fun much.
Worked part time at a claw machine shop just for fun. Which I think I acquired valuable skills such as haggling with aunties and not giving in to cute kids with puppy eyes.
DF KIDS CONCERT (When I Grow Up) & ADULTS CONCERT (Rewind)!
My kids item were: Travellers (pilots and tour guides), comic book writer and actors & actresses.
Another year dancing with the OLD STARS!
Congratulations to Nettezens on clinching Top 5 for DTS Competition!
HSM FAM!
Nettezens post concert/ christmas celebration and Machatos outing and a choreography camp that they just completed.
And to this new bunch with I'm looking forward to the next journey with you guys! O Production coming up in a month an I can't wait ;)
Let's end off with a series of obnoxious photos of myself, wishing that 2020 will pick up it's pace and have many challenges, opportunities and growth lying ahead!
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