Believing is happiness

Because people in the past didn't have trust issues and they were much happier.  

  For the next two weeks, dance practice is gonna be everyday. Today after a long dance in school, hello school was until frreaking 6pm you kidding me bro. Had dance till 7 plus and went to study with kim my monkey cause i'm her coconut tree (LOVE) When i was about to go home, two dancers came to me and had a deep discussion. Gosh, stuffs in my head from 120% become 200%.. .Luckily at the bus stop, met april and quickly confided some things to her and seek her advice and made me feel better. I swear April is the best at giving emotional support :) Every time i tell her never mind never mind, i'll just give in. She'll say: "NO!" Not the arrogant demanding way, but the 'i refuse to let my friend's heart get hurt'. She really saved me from a lot of emotional turmoil. Thanks babe (LOVE)

  On the bus home, a lot things started running in my head. Normally on bus i will just space out, it's really long since i really think about stuffs deep and get a headache. Just recently, I had a good chat with an old friend about putting others before yourself. And i questioned him: "I keep reminding myself to do more good and help more people and impact someone's life every day, that I forgot and actually don't know how to take care of myself." He confessed that the same thing happens to him too. From my point my view, this society consist of 2 groups of people living tilted to either one extremes. Selfish, or selfless. Quoting from my wise mom, humans spend their whole life looking for a balance between things. It's tough not to have too little or too much of something. Till the day they day, they're still in hope of  grasping that equilibrium. Also, the wise quotes say : "Do good while expecting nothing in return." It is not a sin, but just of human nature to have that small glimpse of expectation. Who, would be forgiving enough to say I don't mind a bit when someone you treated good backstabs you? Who would possess that magnitude of graciousness. One day, you'll get so tired of doing much. Not exactly how i'm feeling as for now but it's just a light reflection on my part. 

  Thank you to some special person from 2SR15 for the sweet note on our locker to encourage us on this tough battle towards A levels. 

  Just had a conversation with my mom and she just taught me a new thing. 情切就好,不要虚伪 :) 

Let's take a leap of faith and try to trust others more :) Even if you feel the slightest hint of untruthfulness, embrace it and never lose the faith in humanity. 

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