Beautiful Life or Beautiful Lie.

Let me know that I matter; and I promise you that I'll be worth.

Hey readers ! 2 weeks of Chinese intensive have started. 3 days have passed and im dreading it so much already. Everyday we do at least 2 paper 2s and one paper 1. The only homework comes from Chinese . Oh well, I'm targeting to clear my Chinese o's once and for all, A1. If I so happen to get A2, I'll definitely take again. Now I'm in the A2 bench, so these 2
Weeks, gambatteh and pull myself up to A1 standard ! ^^

I decided that these 2 weeks gonna work on my AMATH too. Ambitious me thinking of doing 2 chapters of a math and e math respectively. But Chinese has left me so little time left to practice math. Now, my goal is to at least clear one chapter of a math by this week and another chapter next week. I need to work a lot harder, I know :)

The sense of urgency that I've always been trying to look for is finally here . I can feel the fear of
O's approaching. I really really badly wanna do well, I mean who doesn't. Probably everyone does but from their actions, only some really show me that they really wanna do well.

傻瓜，我们都一样受了伤却不投降。相信这个他不一样，却又再一次受伤。
相信付出会有代价，代价只是一句；傻瓜。

Haven't been counting how many days it has been since we last spoken. My stomach clench into a fist whenever I see both of you together. Yet I have to feign ignorance, to keep the pieces of me together and going. I Keep reminding myself that today's plight was your choice and what I'm doing is purely for selfish survival of myself. At the meantime, I don't really wanna know, care anything about you. Not giving you any chance, myself any excuse to get affected by you.

For once, I just wanna be that ordinary girl, study hard, and advance to another high level of education.