I'm selfish, it's my fault.

Well, it's kinda sad that everytime I post here, in my blog, wishing that you would somehow be too free and visit it. But I guess its just my wishful thinking. Why would u wanna visit my blog even my you're free .?
I remember how hard it was already just to get you to read my posts specially DEDICATED TO YOU last time.

Nawhnommjikalapiya!

Today had a great conversation with kevink in class. He somehow always give me the ensuring feeling of, don't worry So much, everything will be fine :) however, I was pretty affected when he told me what I did was totally evil. Yea, I have to explain myself again.
I know im in the wrong this time. But I really can't stand the heart shattering moments here and there. You did nothing, and if you realised, all these are the creation of mine. My own problems, my own emotions, during ur idleness after a relationship.

Im falling sick of love,
The fact that I've chosen this path to break off all ties with you, I'm getting more & more eccentric.
No idea is it lesser sadness or more happiness used to cover up sadness.
Moments like this, right now, right here, I wish we were still texting.

Amor delira; delusions.

No longer full of myself,

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