REFLECTION
This feeling. Of being betrayed over and over again.
And what we Always say is, he/she broke my trust. wrong, it's all wrong. It just means that you don't really matter much to him/her that's why she feels it's nothing, it's okay doing this to you.
One sided you doing your best to help, build this friendship.
The other sided him/her, in simple words: taking you for granted.
Well, I'm sorry I'm not pretty of amazing enough to be your friend.
Thanks for making me feel stupid.
However good and angelic you may be, there's still this part of u that is full of flaws. The sins that we have created because of this flaws, it may be unintentional, but karma will strike you back. Karma goes around and come around. Nothing's really unintentional. Those unintentional things are things u chose not to care much and let it affect u hence you flawed.
Today did the balloon activity. We were supposed to blow the balloon to the maximum until it bursts. Before I started, my mind was already controlling me. It was telling me that I can't do it, I don't dare and I'm not gonna do it. I stood there for a moment with the deflated balloon in my hand, I saw the others. They were afraid as well. But they were trying. I started blowing my balloon. The first try I was really scared, and when my balloon reached a certain size the person came and popped it with a pen out of a sudden. I didn't feel
Good, because I didn't burst it myself. Hence, I asked for another balloon And tried again. When the balloon got really big, everyone in the circle was looking and encouraging me. The balloon was going to burst any second. I let in small slips of air bit by bit. I took a deep breathe, close my eyes, and managed a slightly bigger breath of air into the balloon for a few times. But it still didn't burst . I'm so close to success, I thought to myself. Just abit more and it'll burst, and I'm done. I closed my eyed really tight, took a deep breathe, and this time, gave a strong puff to the balloon with all my might.
BOOM! I did it. People around me were all cheering for me. Yes I did it :
You guys may think im brave. Yes I may be braver than others, braver than those who didn't even dare to try. But I was scared too, when the balloon was big and bloated infront of my face, and as I was blowing the air in, every bursting sounds of balloon gave me mini heart attacks and played with my heart like a gun without rhythm.
And I felt great, terrific after that. Because I conquered it :)
And what we Always say is, he/she broke my trust. wrong, it's all wrong. It just means that you don't really matter much to him/her that's why she feels it's nothing, it's okay doing this to you.
One sided you doing your best to help, build this friendship.
The other sided him/her, in simple words: taking you for granted.
Well, I'm sorry I'm not pretty of amazing enough to be your friend.
Thanks for making me feel stupid.
However good and angelic you may be, there's still this part of u that is full of flaws. The sins that we have created because of this flaws, it may be unintentional, but karma will strike you back. Karma goes around and come around. Nothing's really unintentional. Those unintentional things are things u chose not to care much and let it affect u hence you flawed.
Today did the balloon activity. We were supposed to blow the balloon to the maximum until it bursts. Before I started, my mind was already controlling me. It was telling me that I can't do it, I don't dare and I'm not gonna do it. I stood there for a moment with the deflated balloon in my hand, I saw the others. They were afraid as well. But they were trying. I started blowing my balloon. The first try I was really scared, and when my balloon reached a certain size the person came and popped it with a pen out of a sudden. I didn't feel
Good, because I didn't burst it myself. Hence, I asked for another balloon And tried again. When the balloon got really big, everyone in the circle was looking and encouraging me. The balloon was going to burst any second. I let in small slips of air bit by bit. I took a deep breathe, close my eyes, and managed a slightly bigger breath of air into the balloon for a few times. But it still didn't burst . I'm so close to success, I thought to myself. Just abit more and it'll burst, and I'm done. I closed my eyed really tight, took a deep breathe, and this time, gave a strong puff to the balloon with all my might.
BOOM! I did it. People around me were all cheering for me. Yes I did it :
You guys may think im brave. Yes I may be braver than others, braver than those who didn't even dare to try. But I was scared too, when the balloon was big and bloated infront of my face, and as I was blowing the air in, every bursting sounds of balloon gave me mini heart attacks and played with my heart like a gun without rhythm.
And I felt great, terrific after that. Because I conquered it :)
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