Head over Heart

 hello! was reading back my blog posts and it didn't take long to finish reading all my blog posts of the year. Proves how much* i've blogged in this year that i believe has been super hectic for you guys too! Some of my posts, i've ranted, said immature things which I claimed that when I look back again i'll laugh at myself. Well, I didn't. Actually, the reason I always want to grow up and be more mature is because I want to be able to understand the different mindsets of people. But as I discover and interpret, I discover more ugly sides of human creature. Currently, I still don't think I'm very matured. I'm stuck at this stage whereby I can isolate out immature acts but sometimes, I commit them as well. Who am I to judge others then? 2013 is coming to an end... this year wasn't as boomboompow as the previous years.  I've asked a lot of my juniors why they chose poly over JC, they said JC is not their style. Well, JC isn't exactly my style...

Omg can someone get me out of this fix?  Dance factory concert is just over. Have reAlly been practicing like mad, not including the two full days of rehearsal, almost every week day night we meet up to practice. So for this concert, particularly in dance factory this year, I took up a lot of new roles. Firstly, hip hop advanced class IC. So I have to train them to ensure everyone is in sync. Next, I'm a choreographer this year and I shared a lyrical piece with my peers. Always have a thing for lyrical and did manage a few choreography for the past years, but always nv share the choreo because of the high standards I set for myself. Couldn't pass myself. Then, not concert but df related stuff. I'm a dance instructor for hip hop kids class! ^^  So today is only one day after concert and as early as 7am, I have to report in my sec sch (hougang sec) for hlc camp. Attached myself to an awesome group called Winx club! They all super cute hehehe. Very happy to step back into the ...

Hello readers! :D   Currently at LingHang's house doing PW now! :) Have some free time now so i shall blog! Recently, I'm very busy with competition preparation, performance training, choreography, just finished chinese A level, PW Oral presentation tomorrow... and most importantly, RETEST. BOHOO :(   Okay, let's start with dance factory annual concert preparation. Recently, I'm been entrusted the task to be the IC for SK advanced class, and there's a friggin' lot of administrative work to do! :( I have to be in  charge of costumes, and be responsible for the formation etc. Also, i've started to teach hiphop classes at Serangoon branch on weekends Saturday/Sunday. On saturday night, I have Anyhow Arts training for upcoming Anyhow Arts performance around christmas period. My whole sunday is dedicated to dance as I recently joined a K Fever competition. Well, I'm in the finals guys! :D Finals this saturday :) On weekends after a whole long day in scho...

Yes I do have a crush in you. But I've thought it through. I've decided to keep my distance, As I need to think far.  Lets not rush things, Whether we're suited or not, Time will be the best proof. It's hard though, Every time I see you, You bring a smile to my face. I feel so shy, so vulnerable. I really really cannot fall in love with you. I really really don't Want to fall deeper. 

Hello readers.  My title does look interesting doesn't it. Hehe. Post promo has been boringgg all day long, intensive Chinese and PW lessons is equal to going to school to slack. To add on,  the hours are freaking long due to weird breaks in between. Can the day get any more boring ? Nope. Anyway, recently I'm annoyed with humans as a whole. OK maybe not every one but I have no idea why most of the people that I have to communicate with in one day, are super irrritable and stubborn. Okay enough with the egoistic people. Lets talk about good days. The best two days of the week was probably Tuesday and Thursday. As you can see from the photos, I went rollerblading with my BFF (used to be my waiyu but nah we"re too old for that right?) XD she couldn't believe it when I told her that I classified her as the fun friend whom I can have fun and do crazy stuffs with. Apparently this girl does not know how crazy and YOLO she is! We paid quite a price for these nice photos (...

Yay! A short post before I go roller blading today with WenLe at Pasir ris Park! :)  As you can see from the picture above (that's my maple character last time), that's how I feel right now, or maybe more of yesterday after all the promo exam scripts are returned to us. I did improve in all my subjects on overall, but the improvements are not sufficient to let me promote to year 2... To my secondary school juniors that have always regarded me as smart and studious... I'm really not that good. It's a week away before they release the actual promotion results based on overall score for the year, and I don't think I will clear it. I just hope that they'll give me a chance to sit for the re-paper.. (Cause there's a criteria for this too) instead of retaining me straight away. The thought of retaining makes me quite restless but the real reason for the tears falling from my eyes is 1SR17... 1SR17, you guys are the first bunch of classmates that I actually feel s...

Hello readers.    The grand promotional exams are over. It was really the first time, last Friday, that I went out with no mental baggage. I knew that I had all the time of the world to play away. Went to town with him and to my astonishment, the plushey arcade and my pikachu statue outside Scape* is gone. GongCha has changed it's spot, such drastic differences show how long i haven't been to this old home. (Actually not long ago I did come here for MOE Racial Harmony dance filming, haha.) Saw lots of strong dancers at Scape* dancing and unlike the past where it motivates me to train harder, it sort of demoralises me now. It's been equally long since I last joined any competition (the last one was NgeeAnn KPOP dance last year dec) and I have no idea where do I stand. There's a PULSE! competition upcoming and since I'm quite done with my promos now, I really want to join. However, the tides are not on my side as I think it wont be successful. All my crew mates are hi...

The answer to happiness? Let’s face it, not everything is created equal, and that does not exclude humans. Other people may seem to have it all, while some hardly have any. The bottom line is, life is unfair. Not everyone gets to have all the life’s pleasures served to them on a silver platter. For some, they have to work hard for it. And yet, on the other side of the coin, even though it seems that some people may have it all, they still sense that something is missing—that life’s not yet good enough.You see, man naturally has no contentment. One day he sees the world as the perfect place to live in, and come another day he wants to change what he thought was already perfect. Discontentment isn’t always bad; in fact, it makes us strive to better things and ourselves. However, lack of contentment seems to be associated to frustration and lack of appreciation, which in turn can give people the feeling of insufficiency. These people tend to see themselves a...

It seems like my whole life (everything in life), to me, is a contradiction.  Honestly speaking, I've never ever fully trusted anyone before. Of course there'll be periods of time where you and your friend are very close, then u feel like you really trusted her for that moment.  But surroundings change and that 'feel' of trust is gone again.  Its not like she did anything,  its just time. Time dilutes everything.  I have friends who tell me, I should trust more,  I should open up more. But dude,  who's gonna give me a chance to do that? We're living in a society where everyone's so obsessed about themselves. Myself myself and just myself.  Who's mature enough to see and ADMIT that yes, Im not always right instead of always arguing your point.  I need to open up. I need a person  whom I can trust to talk to right. But who is mature enough to be a good listener and not a debator or talk in the I hate most way (im more superior,  im r...

  Time flies, a month have passed like that. This is probably gonna be my last activity to end off my slack spa (Science Practical Assessment) holiday and head to work. This post is gonna be all about school work. HECTIC. There'll always be 2 situations before you received back a test paper with horrendous results. 1) I don't give a damn, i didn't study it, I expected it. 2) Secretly hoping that you'll fare average (not even extraordinary well cause others have put in effort as well, just average you know, from a fail to an average means a lot to me) For the past 5 months (Feb to June), i was always in a situation like number 1. It's not that I entirely didn't study, but the amount of effort I placed in was really minimal. So when results came back, I felt alright cause I know that's not my true ability. After 5 months of living in a situation like that, have I forgotten how to work and perform to my fullest ability? The latest 2 lecture tests, che...

  10 mins is all i've got to rant, got an econs test tmr to prepare later and need to tune in for an early night. Really need to rant, life has been bad :( Tell me people what to do... I'm really tired and lost. I really found my motivation and worked real hard, but it only lasted for a week plus, now i lost my motivation again. Seeing the people around me work so hard, I really just can't be bothered to do anything. This is so bad... I really take things too easily, nothing seems serious to me...   Another thing is i'm facing a lot of problems besides my studies. My parents are going through a divorce now. My mum is really unhappy living in this house now and i've learnt to look at the brighter side. Yes,we'll be moving out of this 5 room flat to a one room flat, with no mirrors to dance to and probably no space to put my piano and guzheng.... I will not lose my daddy as although I don't get to see him everyday, we will meet up once weekly. I'm closer...

Reflection   I realised that I really need to work harder... Sitting among my classmates, learning that my class 1SR17 getting the top of the cohort & knowing that I didn't contribute at all (in fact pull them down...), the feeling was horrible. It makes me feel like a burden (slang) and I guess inferior would be the right word to use in this context. in·fe·ri·or     [ in- feer -ee-er ]     Show IPA adjective 1. lower   in   station,   rank,   degree,   or   grade   (often   followed   by   to    ): a   rank   inferior   to   colonel. 2. lower   in   place   or   position;   closer   to   the   bottom   or   base: descending   into   the   inferior   regions   of   the   earth. 3. of   comparatively   low   grade;   poor   in   quality;   sub...

My universe will never be the same, I'm glad you came, so glad you came. Hello readers. POOF. how long has it been, a month?! Stayover @ Couzzie's house felt just like yesterday, how did 28 days just pass like that. I'm wondering if each time I blog, do I have a change in perspective or mindset? Also... wondering who reads my blog. I do know a few who told me personally that they enjoy reading my blog. Well, that pushes me on to not give up blogging :) So much happened, where to start? ... One more week to the end of holiday. I woke up at 6:30a.m. today being very productive (revised chem, GP and did dumbbell workouts). Oh ya, it's the hazy period now. Not long ago, I was so determined about my 30 day workout challenge. I wrote out a timetable for it, so prepared, till the haze strike and left me helpless. I only managed 4 days of jog at night around punggol park connector. What an untimely time for the haze to strike :( All I can do now is eat and get fat...