不象18岁的我。
When I tell people I'm mature, people think I step one. When I tell people I'm childish, people say I act cute. So WHATEVER 123456789 okay. Yoyobananazzz. XDxDxD
Anyway, I just had this very strong urge to clarify myself.
When I say I'm not a fussy eater and I eat almost everything, it doesn't mean that I have no preference. 随和不代表随便。Although we often use 随便when people ask us what we want to eat. Actually, I do have a very very unique preference for food.
1) dislikes: I dislike green tea, bread, Kueh, dry biscuits, plain white rice (anything that is dry is a major turnoff to me. And yes I do eat rice but I don't eat it (unless im really hungry) when there's no gravy or u must cook it until its super moist xD)
2) likes: i like bittergourd, and all the Veges (literally ALL) that people find it disgusting xD I like milk, I prefer drinks over food as im too lazy to chew. As u can tell how I like gravy, I love soups too so noodles>porridge>rice with gravy. (I dislike old vege that takes forever to chew)
Lastly, I do actually eat everything despite not having such a preference for some. It's just that when I eat them I have no feeling. Also, I'm not a fan of eating or food hunting, I'm just some glutton that always mouth itchy and wanna chew something but to me, expensive or cheap, delicious or average, it's just another meal. I actually go food hunting and buy expensive food with my friends because I value the bonding time with them that's all xD
Congratulations! You just finished reading a chunk of rubbish about my clarification of food that I prefer xD
Maybe I shall share more about what I think of myself (like what kind of person I think I am) because they always say who you potray yourself as (who others think you are) is different from who you really are. At least I hope mine doesn't differ that much as I really try to be as real as possible (not to others but to myself) because I always believe that's very important to be happy.
Okay. So .... I think I'm someone very absolute. Decisions are either black or white, I don't mix in the Greys. Even after I choose black and white seems better, I will always try to make the best out of black as I believe it not the path that you choose but the attitude you decide to face in it that decides how much you can benefit from it. So basically, I'm a very I believe person. I believe I can make a difference according to things I do and I don't believe that anything is fixed or sad as it is. I believe as long as I want it hard enough, it will happen. If it doesn't happen, it only means I didn't want it bad enough, I won't ever think that it is fated. I like to give in and keep quiet when there's a conflict of interest between my friends and i because I always think it's a blessing to grant others their choice. When I really don't like something, I still try to give in and not voice out but end up being very sad because my heart still feels very strongly about it xD this demonstrates my two extremes as well as I remember in secondary school, I was the exact opposite, I always wanted people to give in to me and get what I want xD also, I really like working out even though I also want to slim down. But it's definitely not that I'm forcing myself to work out so to be slim slim because I really enjoy the challenges in the process if perseverance and panting like shit and I love the feeling of aching, like a proud moment the next day. I can't be nice to a lot of people as my energy can only be focused on a few friends. When I keep laughing, it's not like I'm trying to hide my sadness but because its really funny. If I'm sad, I will smile but I won't keep laughing like a retard. People that know me think that I'm those type of girls who always dress nice nice to out, wear make up go out, those that definitely gonna go clubbing and drinking after A's. people that think they know me think that I'm very hardworking and others think that I'm funny and crazy. Here's what I think of myself. Just like what everyone does too, I like to think that I'm very unique in my own ways. I don't really like to club, (who will believe me, the girl who so in appropriately goes clubbing in the midst of school days). But YES I DON'T LIKE TO CLUB. I think alcohol taste horrible and I hate cigarettes. i love to dance but not like they reAlly do proper dancing inside. But yes I will still go to the club with a fun group of friends. i wont go drinking alone because this type of activites is only fun when u go with friends. its the company that makes it fun. of course, friends that will go crazy with me. My mindset is probably just YOYO(you only young once). And yes, I'm definitely not the demure kind of girl that go high class and don't associate with this type of things and if I ever try to be I think I won't enjoy it. I... Just wanna have fun xD people are always amazed by my courage, I do have fears when I do things that people are considered as brave. But I always think that if I don't do it now, when will I have the chance to do it again. If I don't do it now, what if I regret in the future. And for me it's like whenever I do it i won't ever regret one so yea I just especially love to try everything that frightens me, scares me to make me feel a little more invincible hehe. I think I'm an absolute risk taker (but I have height phobias so don't make me play roller coasters etc although I also always challenge myself to play with my friends when I am at the theme park even though I feel terrible each time I play xD)
I like the fact that I'm tall. Even though a lot of People have indirectly laughed at or insulted my height. I know I said on twitter, when I put my emotions into words,the things I say are pretty amazing. I'm not joking about that I think it really is. But sorry, I'm not gonna share them here as those are my inner thoughts and feelings that I only feel comfortable sharing with ... Basically people that I'm comfortable with la. XD
I think the more I try to literally tell people I'm someone who value genuinity, the more they find me fake. So never mind about these people, don't feel like using any energy on them xD
People actually think that im not very smart because of my lousy academic grades and I look hardworking but I cant produce grades so people think I'm stupid. But they are actually shocked at how sharp and fast my brain changes when I'm conversing. Sorry, I just don't put my soul into studying and anything without a soul is... Dead. XD
I always have the feeling of after spending a lot of time thinking or talking About something, I concluded that its all a waste of time, including typing this post but really, I just do whatever my brain tells me to do at that point in time xD don't feel like ACTING MATURE and oppress the thoughts. Maybe the day comes when I become real mature then u guys won't see all these types of nonsensical posts Anymore xD
So do you guys really think you know me? Maybe all these that I've just said is just another round of letting people have any false perception of who I want them to think I am. BOOOM MIND BLOWN?! Up to you to believe which is the real me okay. Cause actually, all of them is me. XD byebye all the best for the last 3 papers for pre-A's tomorrow and Tuesday. Then, hello a levels, I'm still fighting strong and steady to face you! (Better sleep now if not today last day of being strong alr xD)
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