Head over Heart

It's funny how I'm talking about these two events side by side. In the first place, people are usually surprised by the types of dance I do. Other than the look cool hip hop, I do Kpop, contemporary and a little ballet and chinese dance. My dance journey actually started with Chinese Dance when I was 5. Not a very proud moment because I really started young but my progress was slow and negligible when I was young haha. And I moved on to more exposure in modern dance, ballet and acrobatics in primary school while still doing Chinese dance outside. I guess I liked chinese dance most as the lessons were the most fun and I had the most friends there. Somehow I forgot why but I wanted to join a secondary school that was good in chinese dance, and in previous history HS CHINESE DANCE had gold award in SYF. So yea, I always choose the school for dance before academics HAHA. Then came 4 years of chinese dance in HS while I was pursuing hiphop outside since Sec 1. The combination of chi...

It's okay to be wrong because there's right in the wrong. Hey Readers, Proud to say, it has been a week. Usually, I would start the post with it has been a month. Keeping on track! :) Really hope this blogging is gonna help me improve my mindfulness level! On ya guys I recently spilled water on my macbook pro and I freaked out. But it's still alive now so I think I dealt with the situation quite well, so in case your mac book has water spillage too, you can do what I did (?) HAHA and whether it works or not it's god bless you. 1) Turn off your mac book immediately (reason is simple, water + electricity aren't really even friends you know) 2) Use tissue and wipe HAHA (please wipe especially the areas where the water can seep in (e.g, side of track pad, keyboards and the speakers (between keyboard and LCD) 3) chances are the water will be trapped inside your track pad (mine did), so I pressed it around the corners and squeeze out whatever water I can. 4) Take ...

  Hi readers Been told by many that my blog is different, it's not a typical blogger's blog because I just write it like a journal, my every day simple ups and downs. It's true, and I wanna keep it that way. As I look back at my old blog posts, I'm really glad that I've blogged it down in the past because some are once forgotten, but beautiful memories retrieved. Today 3/11/2015 Went to counseling in the morning. Counseling is really good, I used to be very very afraid of the stigmatization that people have with counseling and thinking how will I look in people's eyes. Now I've learned that it's a wonderful thing and however you think of it, it doesn't really bother me at all cause I know I'm benefitting from it. After each session, I feel a tinge of hope like fairy hurts, sparkling and sprinkling on me. All the positive vibes. Perhaps last week was bad because I missed my appointment and it subsequently led to a whole series of 'unexami...

Is mindfulness about thinking about stuffs that I have chosen so conveniently and instinctively to ignore whenever a small trigger of that thought comes into my head? I can hear the angel and devil speaking. The angel is trying to follow up with that thought process but the devil is blocking it so effortlessly like he has done it umpteen times. My dream isn't about being a dance teacher, it is about being able to dance well. To fit that word well, I have chosen to undergo training at NAFA. To make it more socially acceptable,  I've conditioned it, beautify it, altered it such that it becomes: I want to go NAFA because I want to become a better dance teacher. Any dance job is a joy to me. I guess teaching is also my strength as I enjoy simplifying things, solving seemingly impossible problems. Bu the rawest, truest part of my dream is, I want to be a good dancer, to be acknowledged as one even among other trained dancers. I can't possibly just settle for the less yet a more ...

  I would really have forgotten about all the negativity i've posted 3 weeks ago in my previous post if ZH didn't made the statement of "you are like so emo", which lead me to why did you say so and WOW. Did I just typed that I hate my life currently 3 weeks ago? HAH. No wonder friends have came up to me randomly, little worried, asking if i'm okay, I didn't know I was in such deep shit now that it's slightly over and a whole lot better.   Special thanks to CL for driving me out that night to punggol waterway, and lying to someone else that made me feel more important and better. 4 hours of headless rants and chatters about life. I feel acknowledged when people tell me they can't imagine what kind of shit I'm in and how well I've dealt with it after listening to my story. Also, allowing me to drive your car without a license was really the highlight of the best moments that night. HAHA (I concluded that I didn't wanna die so young ...

hi readers I currently hate school, and soon I will hate life. If this continues I'm gonna go back to my JC state ARGH. Monday : School 8:15-11:30pm Teach dance 7:30pm - 8:30pm Tuesday: Counseling session 11am - 1+pm (for some personal reasons that my mom is forcing me to go and I need to go if not she'll threaten to commit suicide like yet again) Don't be shocked i'm painfully bluntly honest and open in my blog Proj meeting 3-6pm   teach dance 8:30pm - 9:30pm Wednesday: School 8:15am- 11:30am Indancity 7:30pm - 8:30pm Thursday: School 12pm - 3:30pm Friday: School 8:15am - 11:30am School 12pm - 3:30pm Project meeting 3:30pm - 6pm Teach dance 7pm- 8pm Saturday: Ballet 10:45am - 12:30pm Indancity 2pm - 5pm YNDA concert training 9pm - 10pm Sunday: YNDA concert training 2:30pm - 3:30pm Waacking class 4:30pm - 5:30pm Inter classs 5:30pm - 6:30pm DFS crew training 6:45pm - 8pm And the Mega crew and ALL STARS crew trainings that i'm unable to eve...

Hey readers. Let's not talk about August.. it's September already! Each time I have the thought of blogging, I'll go back to refer to my blog and realize that yet another month has passed. So i like to start with where am I writing this post, I'm currently sitting among the study benches of SMU xD I find it especially interesting each time i'm writing a post as I'm seldom at home, either at work, or on the way to somewhere, or in school having some spare time. So what happened in August?!! Nothing much actually .. but a lot of things too HAHA! School has officially started. Having 3 morning classes in a week is no joke, and late nights due to dance teachings. I barely have time to revise my work but meh... still surviving! You guys can take a look at my September calendar I guess to have a gauge of whats happening in my life HAH! Oh ya recently since school started i've went to 3 sessions of Karaoke hehe new found passion in singing :) And YAY I...

  Hi readers. I have been gone for quite some time... from my birthday which is more than a month ago!   For this most recent month, I have been attending camps, teaching and having performances and shows now and then. I guessed I have mentioned this but in case some of you missed it and is curious, I'm in Singapore Management University. Why School/Faculty of social science? Well, the reason is simple. Psychology has always been what I wanted to pursue since Secondary. Back to those days after O Levels where people were clueless of which course in Poly to go, I was deciding between studying Psy in poly or going to the conventional path and making it to the university easier. In JC,  I heard about how competitive FASS is and given how unpromising my results were at that point in time, I had a backup plan of going into interior designing. Thankfully, my results were sufficient to bring me into SMU SOCIAL SCIENCE which may not be as prestigious as NUS FASS- some people ...

Actually never thought of having a birthday party but lemme explain my motivation and rationale to you guys okay. So basically, I was thinking it would be very sad if no one helped me to celebrate my birthday. Also recently, drifted from many friends and hence I was pretty sure everyone was self-engrossed in their own lives and the best birthday greeting would extend to a long message. Therefore, I have decided that I will make myself feel special, feel happy and loved. I don't have to wait for other people to surprise me, make me feel loved, I can make myself feel loved, feel happy, why not. And therefore just the week  itself, I started planning, researching, ordering, collecting everything by myself :D Many thanks to my friends who came earlier on the day itself to help me set-up the place! :D Especially Jolynn who brought the whole ring light and tripod over the day before and helped me with the photobooth the whole day! And QiHui who braved the hot sun with me to TaiSeng and g...

The Friday that I'm back from Malaysia, had DFS last practice before DFO the next day! DFO Sat morning started with ballet, then harp class and rushed to JCube for DFO rehearsal and show! Did 4 items this time instead of 5, because i have no formation for mega crew, really rather upset about it because I spend quite a lot of effort practicing the mega item and going pioneer every Wednesday for the practices. I'm glad all the items went well. HAPPY BECAUSE MUMMY SAID THAT I'VE IMPROVED IN TERMS OF DANCING and KEISHA ACKNOWLEDGED ME FOR MY EXPRESSIONS BEING ON POINT FOR KEVIN'S SEXY KPOP ITEM :D Ever since Dfunkatron, haven't been very confident doing sexy item and that acknowledgement (i didn't prompt it she just told me herself ok) really made me feel a lot better! DFS CREW ITEM - Pass that Dutch Jacky Inter Class BTS - I need you Didn't manage to get the video for Ryezal's waacking item and sexy K-Pop item! With ma pretty babes, maini ...