Head over Heart

  Hello humans.   I really wished I could be more poetic and write more sophisticatedly instead of ranting on and on. Tonight was a bad night thanks to my mom. I sympathise with your situation but dude, can there be more equality? For 91 days that we didn't quarrel, it was 91 days of giving in. In some situations its like no big deal but times where I had to give up something that meant quite a lot to me in exchange of your peacefulness, and good relationship between us, I made you feel better but I'm feeling horrible. In nature, I was never the girl who gave in. Only till JC I made such a big change, and its not a bad change but it makes me really tired sometimes trying so hard to create peace. Now, I'm gonna delve deeper that as you guys continue reading, you won't even believe that it's the same person you see in school. (I secretly hope people who used to read my blog don't read it anymore now, and you guys may ask me if I don't want people to read why...

Hello guys. I'm sorry but to be real practical here, it feels better when someone you fancy does something nice for you compared to random somebody anybody:b I don't know is it just me being over sensitive (being a girl, this is something I can never overcome), but recently I've spot two instances where you''re nice to me :) you probably didn't think much of it, but it really made my day each time I replay it in my head and makes me smile to myself. (Gahh, I need to stop sounding so hopeless.) I was actually in a bad mood today because I fell asleep intentionally during econs but I didn't expect getting the attention of the whole LT. I WAS  really TIRED BUT EVEN MORE EMBARRASSED AT THAT POINT OF TIME. ended up walking home with my head hung low in embarrassment. that , made a bad end to my day. Then I went Rp Mac to do some work. Overheard the conversation of the guys sitting beside me and it appears that they play the guitar. So I was tempted and itched f...

  Hello readers, blogging makes me realise how fast days are passing. One glance across, it's 6 days later already. So... last week I was damn motivated and chiongchiongchiong, then weekends totally burned out and slept lika pig. This week still burnt out. HAHA the after effects of a week of chiong mug = 2 weeks of rest. CMI.   Today spent half my day helping jolynn with her production, it was a documentary about me hehe :D I feel so honoured to be asked by her group to be interviewed because honestly i'm not talented at all. Did Chinese Dance, HipHop and Contemp. Really enjoyed the process of filming, even though it was hot (weather) and repetitive. They have to achieve a certain angle and lighting due to their professionalism while I had to quality check my own dance moves to keep repeating till i feel i'm up to standards. I think I really aged, such a small event of the morning made me so tired. I guess i'm really not a morning person. Once I wake up early it feels...

  Hello readers.   I think school's crazy, the fact that they give us lessons till 7pm today. 7am to 7pm?! Was rushing, revising, and studying every break, rarely had time to eat had to stuff our food down and faster study. And they stress so much about revising, internalising and organising your notes. Even trying to accomplish these 3 points alone every night i'm dying. Let alone the homework that each subject needs like 2 hours. That damn moment when you spent your whole weekend studying from morning to night (okay maybe 10am, i can't wake up any earlier) but you still can't clear your homework. I did revision during the weekends too. I think to really catch up on all that i'm lagging behind, I really have to resort to sleeping at 1am every night and chiong study all the way. Damn stress, it's count down 100 plus more days to A levels. That's like zooom, it's A levels. I just need to endure a while more and it'll all be worth it. Last time I di...

生命有几个过客,会带走你的天真?   Hello readers, it's 11:46, a sign of being normal because i'm not like blogging half pass 12. My goal is to sleep before 12! Also, pardon me for the lack of pictures for the posts this period as it really requies quite some time managing the photos. I'm just trying to keep it a simple and sweet update here. Let's do by point form because...  I've been studying like that recently. 1) YAY for 8 happy days, because within these 8 days I didn't turn bipolar. (I didn't really count I backtracked using my blog posts :b) I hope I can keep it this way. This weekend has been really productive for me in terms of both quality and quantity time spent with my books. Sadly, every sunday at 3pm to 6pm, I'll keep looking at my watch thinking, they just started dance, they're still dancing and OH, dance ended already. Gonna miss a few performances, competitions and the annual concert due to A's, but i'm gonna be the emcee for the concer...

Before I begin, just thought of sharing this very meaningful oldie that my dad and I used to sing together.   Hello humans. It's funny how I call you guys humans its like a separation as if i'm not part of the human clan. Back to blogging, reminds me of how unplanned my journal is and how it can jump from one topic to another, but it's the only avenue that I show my truest self. Warning, the post below may be dense with errors due to the feverish brain, so good luck in figuring out my language :)   Okay, it's 2:40AM whatsapp, thursday morning and there's school.. till 6PM wtf. That day was piecing the lego for our college 25th anniversary and I got a lil bit too pissed so i went like fuck it. Then YT was like, please do not insult the f word you do not say it in that tone. HAHAH, quite funny, it actually means i don't sound aggressive and natural saying that word. Recently I've been more conscious and realised I kept scolding the F word but I kept i...

  Hello readers! :D I think i'm highly bipolar because if you have been keeping track of my posts, it's either super negative or super positive. The fact that people nowadays like to compare who is worst to do and who is more pitiful, for idk what (to gain sympathy?), I shall not follow the norm. I'm not bipolar, bipolar is worst than this, it's just each time I'm feeling very sad I'll be very resilient and encourage myself back on track to fight again! :D   Recently, I realised the greatest comfort you can get is to find out that you're not alone. Maybe i've been trying too hard to be independent since young, that I seldom like to seek help from friends. But friends, really allow you to go a long long longer way! :) Other than all the wonderful stuffs i've learnt from my leadership council in secondary school, the other reason why i'm so richly educated in terms of emotional advices is my mom. Although she isn't very highly educated, she...

  Welcome to my life. The not very girly girl who feels a lot, who thinks a lot, who tries hard, who is believed to be weird and highly resilient.   Today was a fucking emotional day in school for me. Idk why, i'm supposed to be in a good mood after getting 11 hours of sleep... Did a one page rant during economics tutorial. Sorry i didn't pay attention because I was really going crazy. I felt like crying every lesson, trying to swallow back my tears. If i didn't misuse econs tutorial, i would end up walking out of class I think. On a side note, i'm due for sleep and i feel like vomiting now as i'm semi-blogging and a doing GP.   MY RANT. Why do people have to bring others down. Because you did your work, do you have to mock at the person or say in the person's face that I did, did you? I'm punctual, you're late! Okay, you can go ahead and tell the world about what a wonderful person you are cause you did your work, but do you hae to bring others do...

那我能做你的天空吗?   Yesterday was Netballuxion and I ... overslept haha! I really can't survive if i don't have sufficient sleep, born a pig. Missed the first match! Overall won 3 out of the 5 matches. I fell down during the 3rd match and played the last two match with a sprained ankle. It wasn't that bad at the moment I swear but at night became damn painful. We played again SR netball seniors and I saw SR netball coach! We didn't get in finals, we were so damn close, we could have won one of the matches we really really under-performed in that match I think all of us nervous and sleeping but it's okay we had fun . It's okay lynette, I need to stop harping on that match haha! Really wonderful journey training with you girls and meeting new friends Rowena and Aishah! : D I hope we'll have chacne to play netball together again and thank you for the surprise celebration again, and always encouraging me, telling me that I can one when I'm not confident of my sho...

  Hello readers ! :) I know I said I'm gonna blog yesterday night but ended by blogging today morning because I fell asleep after doing the lotte koala march shake challenge yesterday xD I must say that I'm more diligent at blogging than following the schedule to complete my school work! X) yesterday's sleep was good... It's very hard for me to have a deep long sleep nowadays as I keep getting insomnia and I can't sleep in due to school. So the night yesterday was really precious hehe.   I think the main thing I wanna blog about is netball training the day before yesterday! I reached super early like 6 when training supposed to start at 730 to train shooting. Did 200 shots and my arm was tired already so I sat in the middle of the court to do some econs. People were judging yea but the air was good, the space was huge and the sky was blue so meh who cares. Started with some passes warm up and straight shutter drill while waiting for everyone to be here. Was shooti...