如果你是彩虹,
那我能做你的天空吗?
Yesterday was Netballuxion and I ... overslept haha! I really can't survive if i don't have sufficient sleep, born a pig. Missed the first match! Overall won 3 out of the 5 matches. I fell down during the 3rd match and played the last two match with a sprained ankle. It wasn't that bad at the moment I swear but at night became damn painful. We played again SR netball seniors and I saw SR netball coach! We didn't get in finals, we were so damn close, we could have won one of the matches we really really under-performed in that match I think all of us nervous and sleeping but it's okay we had fun . It's okay lynette, I need to stop harping on that match haha! Really wonderful journey training with you girls and meeting new friends Rowena and Aishah! : D I hope we'll have chacne to play netball together again and thank you for the surprise celebration again, and always encouraging me, telling me that I can one when I'm not confident of my shooting! :) It really takes a lot of trust in a game. Trust that your team mate will deliver the pass well. and your team mate will trust that you'll run that distance fast enough and get your ball. And delivering that center pass, all the way into the semi-circle, and shoot it in :) my passion for netball is back :D
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Hello readers! It's already 6th july, 2 days after my birthday! Time flies when you're having fun! A new term just started and already broke the momentum on the fourth day... no excuses, it's my fault. Let me take some time to share with you guys about this 'who's fault is it?' thing. It's a great takeaway for me during one of my leadership camps in secondary school. For those who know me well enough, you guys may know that i love to learn and try new stuffs. For almost everything that has happened, I'll ask myself what can I learn from this. Even from the most boring activity, there's a lesson to be learnt and it's so subconscious that I don't really ask myself but my brain just starts processing all the things i've been and make a conclusion. Then i'll debate in my head about is that really true, my inner voices fighting. Disclaimer: This applies more to the aspects of human behaviour and no where near academics. I not only observe others, but I always check myself, but I have to make it clear. It's not the, ''i'm not on the right track, i need to be more disciplined let's go'' kinda thought but it often surrounds emotions, such that I worry that I'm overboard with my words in trying to crack a joke and hurt the person's feelings. I know many of this small moments in life are sealed up with just a laugh. As much as I'm conscious of, i dont wish to hurt anyone. Okay back to the fault issue. To cut the long story short, the lesson learnt was that you have to be a team player. When things go wrong, when your friend makes a mistake, it's not his fault. It's your fault. You can never be free of fault. He makes the mistake, but as a team mate, you didn't help to prevent it, you didn't help to encourage him, you didn't do that something that could easily over turn the situation and make the situation less tense, make him feel better. It is your fault. Of course, there are certain extreme cases where some friends of mine always say sorry to every situation, that's not how it's supposed to be too. And to the extra mighty ego people out there that will never admit that it's their fault but always say things like :" If it's my fault i will admit but it's not my fault.", I have no comments for you people / So ever since that lesson learnt, i've been applying it quite regularly in my life. After we say sorry we don't let the atmosphere sink lower and lower, and kill ourselves with guilts but quickly do something and save the situation! :D
I've read so many entries and vlogs talking about how it's just my point of view so if you don't agree it's okay blahblahblah. I'm not gonna say that because people who read or watch these posts should already have this message at the back of their mind and differentiate between critical and judgemental. (ROLL EYES)
So, the most happening an wowwow event lately was my 18th birthday! I felt like a princess but just missing a prince. First week of school was tiring for every one. It was just mid week and .. burnt. Spent my thursday and friday in school in a daze, friday I was too excited to be listening to class. xD The first best part of the week was that I finally became friends with my EC! (i think, it all started in the canteen.. then we try to smile when we talk pass each other haha but I gonna die of awkwardness/ shyness) I was just telling my cousin about how good looking guys should be banned from being sales assistant because I would be so embarrassed and not dare to buy anything xD Luckily this is not a very prominent scene in Singapore but in Taiwan.. wa eye porn. The second thing was (yes, after mentioning it for so many times my timeline finally reached here) my birthday! :D Is this post getting too wordy for you yet? Because my phone's currently out of batt and i have no incentives to charge it so my photos are stuck there and out of reach.
On friday, went to school with all the presents prepared for my friends. It rained in the middle of morning assembly and the student leader was still trying so hard to get his point across when every one's just scrambling in and ignoring hahaha! The girls passed me my present and i love it whee! There's a pikachu beanie and pikachu suite and a pencil case. I swear they're damn sweet and it felt like the a customised gift for me! Shall skip the details of the painful 2 hours of chem lecture. The class celebrated for me during the 30 mins break and there was a wild pikachu on the loose outside the class. I was forced to wear it and take photo along the corridor and so many people were walking past! :( The card from the class was the most valuable gift to me. Especially when the guys, normally a man of few words, wrote at least two sentences for me other than the classic 'happy birthday!' and sign off! :b Really very touched by their effort to elaborate the wishing. After school had fringe performance house dance practice. Although I wasn't a College Ambassador, but very happy this time can do the dance with my girls! :D Sorry but not sorry. This is called the perks of having the President of SC in my clique :b hahas! Had quite a lot of fun partnering and dancing with April!
Went home to change and doll myself up for the second half of the day! Had dinner with Joshen and Colleen at a restaurant at Ion called paradise something i can't remember. It was the first time they meet each other under the great honour of me. At the start it was so awkward but through the dinner they became even more childish than me tsk. One of the main reasons why I wanna blog about my birthday is because of this dinner. There are too many funny and precious moments that I want to archive them here. First, it was ordering of food. The birthday girl was suppoesd to choose but you know how indecisive girls are, joshen was starving while waiting for my dear cousin and I to finish selecting xD When we were about to submit our menu, he shouted wait and QC our orders. His reaction was : "Are you sure...?" My mind (shit i think he thinks we order too much later cannot finsih and too expensive). his mind (I'm so hungry this doesn't even look enough to make me full) and... he ticked a few more hahas! xiaolongbao was still my favourite. We shared the noodles and Joshen I'm gonna exposed your barbarian side here. Because the noodle was too elastic, it wasn't ending and we can't eat it because we were sharing. So he took the spoon and started hitting the noodle omg the image in my head now makes me cackle because it wasn't cut cut cut it was KIANG KIANG KIANG. The funnier part was all 3 of us started doing the same thing to get the noodle hahah so much class. Then, while joshen was pulling the noodes, i suddenly said. OMG GOT END! and they heard it as ANT. and it was a super long strand and joshen was trying to put it onto his spoon and they were freaking out like omg where's the ant don't tell me now, and searching for the ant. I was laughing till I couldn't talk and explain myself. When I finally could, there was another burst of laughters xD Then it was the food porn non-stop. Starting, I tried to take a shot of the food before we start dining and joshen was impatient waiting for me to take that one shot so that he can start eating. Then colleen started being like I want take i want take, then all the different sorts of angle of the same plate of food xD She spent like 5 minute taking each plate of food using my phone and we just ignore her and eat the other dishes first hahah! We ordered a lot a lot, you can see on insta. And someone say it's not about finishing it yeayea. NO NO NO TSK. One shouldn't waste food. Then i forgot what we said but my Colleen and I were just being real retarded and we were like yea no wonder we're cousins and we high five and joshen was judging us but after that he did the exact same thing as us hahaha. It's funny how both of them have more extreme reactions than me about a particular person and they were teaching me how to be an asshole to reply texts haha. And we sang the birthday song 3 times to get a successful video on instagram xD They were so mean laughing at my tribal dance and i really don't understand why is it so funny to them. They didn't coordinate properly and bought 2 cakes for me, i very touched but I very fat now :( First time eating TWG cake omg dayum . Also, I read colleen's card while I was bored waiting for my stomach to digest so that I can eat more. So touching she said that i've changed a lot. Lemme quote her letter because it's the best letter i've received this birthday and i love you biao jie.
"Still remember when you were young, I would foresee you growing up to be a spoilt girl (to be really honest HAH) but didn't expect to see you change so much. Especially when you became a leader in secondary sch, and learnt to actually care for your friends. And most importantly, to have your decision and dreams, probably the biggest change I have seen in you.... May we celebrate our birthdays forever and our children's and our grandchildren's. <3 about="" and="" cousin="" i="" love="" most="" off="" p="" right="" s="" she="" signing="" that="" the="">
Once again, I reflected and this made me very very thankful to my teachers and seniors in HS. For giving me a chance to embark on the leadership journey. It was so long ago but as we were chatting, I realised when I was young I was really a spoilt girl who gets every thing she wants and would just moan and moan until I am pleased. Unimaginable hor, never mind don't imagine ;)
Ended the dinner with some photos, and there's a funny part again. Joshen was helping Colleen and I take polaroid. And he : 1,23 snap. We were both shocked haha it was the fastest polaroid I ever taken and the picture turned out to be blur. It was the first polaroid I took that actually turns out to be blur too, i never knew that could happen thanks for such an eye-opener ah! Then took a proper one, and we were laughing.. laughing.. laughing about something and suddenly FLASH. He accidentally pressed the button and took a shot. I'm totally amazed by his photography skills tonight. In the end the picture caught a corner of my cousin's face hahaha! Then his turn to take with me. Colleen was like: 1..... 2...... Joshen: HAIS, (backs out of the photo). It's super funny how hard it is to take a photo with him. And he was like, can you just 1,23 and get over and done with it. I was laughing like mad la cause one so fast one so slow xD In the end one of the 2 shots was unglam but yeah... I saw the shadows developing and never saw that photo again. xD Really fun dinner with them! 9 plus already so colleen and I headed to our next destination, acid bar.
Meet xintao at somerset. While waiting for woei ting to come, went Victoria Secret to shop because I need to buy perfume, just finished mine. In the end I got it as a present from my deary couzz hehe. Damn funny again. She was like : "People already buy Marc Jacobs already how do i have a choice." HAHAH! Acid bar was full house so we cabbed down to bugis. The woei ting hor really wanna make me have a memorable birthday so much, made us walk in the middle of the busy traffics of orchard road to get our cab. And she ask me, is this YOLO enough? HAHA, love her! On the cab also much crap, just happened that xintao, my cousin and myself chinese standards all bad one then she haven't drink already like drunk keep reciting chinese lines. And the taxi uncle actually said her chinese good sounds like Confucius speaking! HAHA In the end clarke quay also super crowded so hard to even pass through so we changed destination to bugis. Went to V7 because everywhere else was too crowded, especially bars because my initial plan wasn't to go club! Shared table with YimLee and her friends which I'm sorry I don't know their names! They were singing chinese songs not bad luckily I'm a quite chinese person but only one out of the many many groups were guys and there was this cute guy at the side. I was more like looking at the performance than drinking. First, it was the price of the alcohol that shocked me. Second, it was the smoking indoors that shocked me. Third, it was the 3s thingy where you pour the strong alcohol into ur mouth that shocked me. I was forced to do the 3s thingy too by the other friends but because I keep rejecting they make me drink half mix instead. After I took a sip my face immediately changed like GAHH OMG the taste so bitter. I was very conscious of the match I have the next day idw to shoot while seeing 3 nets so I didn't wanna challenge myself (honestly there isn't much to challenge really, i don't drink normally and I highly believe that I can't hold my liquor well) HAHA! And I really don't like the taste maybe if it was sweeter I would re-consider. After my cousin left, felicia and I were like xiang yi wei ming inside, saving each other and protecting each other xD Pour woei ting keep kena forced to drink and it's harder for her to reject because it's her friends. Ｉdo love to party but I really think this drink isn't my type of thing. It's funny how I keep asking woei ting to walk straight because she's a lil high already but she can walk straight lah xD It's just fun to tease. I was talking rubbish like why the toilet at Vivo (we were at bugis plus) and all of them immediately thought I drunk. I had such a hard time explaning myself and I'm not drunk I'm just tired. And they say that's what all the drunk people say. HAHA! So yuan wang, how do you say you're not drunk when you're really not drunk! I also made a mental note to myself that I must experience Zouk soon before it closes down! After awhile we hopped to Club icon. Felicia and I almost couldn't go in becaue somehow ladies need to be above 21 but that guy let us in. Tingting came to join us too. I love the music here better, they sing better. But the instavid that I record probably because it's too loud you can't hear shit. I like the music but the haste here was worst. I was so conscious till I smell my own clothes and omg I smell like a smoker. Cabbed home with felicia at around 3 because we both have to wake up early the next day (later). It was really an eye-opener and experience for me as I ponder amidst my deep thoughts of what's going through the minds of these people who club regularly. Had a short discussion with felicia, but we really feel to comprehend x)
I don't know why but this holiday I keep having this feeling of... I wish that I am able to do more to protect some one, seeing how sad and alone he is, i wish I could do something to cheer up he day. I wish I was someone to his life that could do something and make him feel better, yet at the same time I don't want to be any one in his life. But I'm no one. I don't need you to protect me, I wanna protect you. It's okay, these confusing feelings are not gonna last. (These set of words can literally apply to teenager of our age, because deep down in our heart, we all feel so empty. empty. empty.)
人越疯,心越空.
Was listening to the song "When I was your man" just now and realised the lyrics are really really sad.
"
Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
Yesterday was Netballuxion and I ... overslept haha! I really can't survive if i don't have sufficient sleep, born a pig. Missed the first match! Overall won 3 out of the 5 matches. I fell down during the 3rd match and played the last two match with a sprained ankle. It wasn't that bad at the moment I swear but at night became damn painful. We played again SR netball seniors and I saw SR netball coach! We didn't get in finals, we were so damn close, we could have won one of the matches we really really under-performed in that match I think all of us nervous and sleeping but it's okay we had fun . It's okay lynette, I need to stop harping on that match haha! Really wonderful journey training with you girls and meeting new friends Rowena and Aishah! : D I hope we'll have chacne to play netball together again and thank you for the surprise celebration again, and always encouraging me, telling me that I can one when I'm not confident of my shooting! :) It really takes a lot of trust in a game. Trust that your team mate will deliver the pass well. and your team mate will trust that you'll run that distance fast enough and get your ball. And delivering that center pass, all the way into the semi-circle, and shoot it in :) my passion for netball is back :D
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Hello readers! It's already 6th july, 2 days after my birthday! Time flies when you're having fun! A new term just started and already broke the momentum on the fourth day... no excuses, it's my fault. Let me take some time to share with you guys about this 'who's fault is it?' thing. It's a great takeaway for me during one of my leadership camps in secondary school. For those who know me well enough, you guys may know that i love to learn and try new stuffs. For almost everything that has happened, I'll ask myself what can I learn from this. Even from the most boring activity, there's a lesson to be learnt and it's so subconscious that I don't really ask myself but my brain just starts processing all the things i've been and make a conclusion. Then i'll debate in my head about is that really true, my inner voices fighting. Disclaimer: This applies more to the aspects of human behaviour and no where near academics. I not only observe others, but I always check myself, but I have to make it clear. It's not the, ''i'm not on the right track, i need to be more disciplined let's go'' kinda thought but it often surrounds emotions, such that I worry that I'm overboard with my words in trying to crack a joke and hurt the person's feelings. I know many of this small moments in life are sealed up with just a laugh. As much as I'm conscious of, i dont wish to hurt anyone. Okay back to the fault issue. To cut the long story short, the lesson learnt was that you have to be a team player. When things go wrong, when your friend makes a mistake, it's not his fault. It's your fault. You can never be free of fault. He makes the mistake, but as a team mate, you didn't help to prevent it, you didn't help to encourage him, you didn't do that something that could easily over turn the situation and make the situation less tense, make him feel better. It is your fault. Of course, there are certain extreme cases where some friends of mine always say sorry to every situation, that's not how it's supposed to be too. And to the extra mighty ego people out there that will never admit that it's their fault but always say things like :" If it's my fault i will admit but it's not my fault.", I have no comments for you people / So ever since that lesson learnt, i've been applying it quite regularly in my life. After we say sorry we don't let the atmosphere sink lower and lower, and kill ourselves with guilts but quickly do something and save the situation! :D
I've read so many entries and vlogs talking about how it's just my point of view so if you don't agree it's okay blahblahblah. I'm not gonna say that because people who read or watch these posts should already have this message at the back of their mind and differentiate between critical and judgemental. (ROLL EYES)
So, the most happening an wowwow event lately was my 18th birthday! I felt like a princess but just missing a prince. First week of school was tiring for every one. It was just mid week and .. burnt. Spent my thursday and friday in school in a daze, friday I was too excited to be listening to class. xD The first best part of the week was that I finally became friends with my EC! (i think, it all started in the canteen.. then we try to smile when we talk pass each other haha but I gonna die of awkwardness/ shyness) I was just telling my cousin about how good looking guys should be banned from being sales assistant because I would be so embarrassed and not dare to buy anything xD Luckily this is not a very prominent scene in Singapore but in Taiwan.. wa eye porn. The second thing was (yes, after mentioning it for so many times my timeline finally reached here) my birthday! :D Is this post getting too wordy for you yet? Because my phone's currently out of batt and i have no incentives to charge it so my photos are stuck there and out of reach.
On friday, went to school with all the presents prepared for my friends. It rained in the middle of morning assembly and the student leader was still trying so hard to get his point across when every one's just scrambling in and ignoring hahaha! The girls passed me my present and i love it whee! There's a pikachu beanie and pikachu suite and a pencil case. I swear they're damn sweet and it felt like the a customised gift for me! Shall skip the details of the painful 2 hours of chem lecture. The class celebrated for me during the 30 mins break and there was a wild pikachu on the loose outside the class. I was forced to wear it and take photo along the corridor and so many people were walking past! :( The card from the class was the most valuable gift to me. Especially when the guys, normally a man of few words, wrote at least two sentences for me other than the classic 'happy birthday!' and sign off! :b Really very touched by their effort to elaborate the wishing. After school had fringe performance house dance practice. Although I wasn't a College Ambassador, but very happy this time can do the dance with my girls! :D Sorry but not sorry. This is called the perks of having the President of SC in my clique :b hahas! Had quite a lot of fun partnering and dancing with April!
Went home to change and doll myself up for the second half of the day! Had dinner with Joshen and Colleen at a restaurant at Ion called paradise something i can't remember. It was the first time they meet each other under the great honour of me. At the start it was so awkward but through the dinner they became even more childish than me tsk. One of the main reasons why I wanna blog about my birthday is because of this dinner. There are too many funny and precious moments that I want to archive them here. First, it was ordering of food. The birthday girl was suppoesd to choose but you know how indecisive girls are, joshen was starving while waiting for my dear cousin and I to finish selecting xD When we were about to submit our menu, he shouted wait and QC our orders. His reaction was : "Are you sure...?" My mind (shit i think he thinks we order too much later cannot finsih and too expensive). his mind (I'm so hungry this doesn't even look enough to make me full) and... he ticked a few more hahas! xiaolongbao was still my favourite. We shared the noodles and Joshen I'm gonna exposed your barbarian side here. Because the noodle was too elastic, it wasn't ending and we can't eat it because we were sharing. So he took the spoon and started hitting the noodle omg the image in my head now makes me cackle because it wasn't cut cut cut it was KIANG KIANG KIANG. The funnier part was all 3 of us started doing the same thing to get the noodle hahah so much class. Then, while joshen was pulling the noodes, i suddenly said. OMG GOT END! and they heard it as ANT. and it was a super long strand and joshen was trying to put it onto his spoon and they were freaking out like omg where's the ant don't tell me now, and searching for the ant. I was laughing till I couldn't talk and explain myself. When I finally could, there was another burst of laughters xD Then it was the food porn non-stop. Starting, I tried to take a shot of the food before we start dining and joshen was impatient waiting for me to take that one shot so that he can start eating. Then colleen started being like I want take i want take, then all the different sorts of angle of the same plate of food xD She spent like 5 minute taking each plate of food using my phone and we just ignore her and eat the other dishes first hahah! We ordered a lot a lot, you can see on insta. And someone say it's not about finishing it yeayea. NO NO NO TSK. One shouldn't waste food. Then i forgot what we said but my Colleen and I were just being real retarded and we were like yea no wonder we're cousins and we high five and joshen was judging us but after that he did the exact same thing as us hahaha. It's funny how both of them have more extreme reactions than me about a particular person and they were teaching me how to be an asshole to reply texts haha. And we sang the birthday song 3 times to get a successful video on instagram xD They were so mean laughing at my tribal dance and i really don't understand why is it so funny to them. They didn't coordinate properly and bought 2 cakes for me, i very touched but I very fat now :( First time eating TWG cake omg dayum . Also, I read colleen's card while I was bored waiting for my stomach to digest so that I can eat more. So touching she said that i've changed a lot. Lemme quote her letter because it's the best letter i've received this birthday and i love you biao jie.
"Still remember when you were young, I would foresee you growing up to be a spoilt girl (to be really honest HAH) but didn't expect to see you change so much. Especially when you became a leader in secondary sch, and learnt to actually care for your friends. And most importantly, to have your decision and dreams, probably the biggest change I have seen in you.... May we celebrate our birthdays forever and our children's and our grandchildren's. <3 about="" and="" cousin="" i="" love="" most="" off="" p="" right="" s="" she="" signing="" that="" the="">
Once again, I reflected and this made me very very thankful to my teachers and seniors in HS. For giving me a chance to embark on the leadership journey. It was so long ago but as we were chatting, I realised when I was young I was really a spoilt girl who gets every thing she wants and would just moan and moan until I am pleased. Unimaginable hor, never mind don't imagine ;)
Ended the dinner with some photos, and there's a funny part again. Joshen was helping Colleen and I take polaroid. And he : 1,23 snap. We were both shocked haha it was the fastest polaroid I ever taken and the picture turned out to be blur. It was the first polaroid I took that actually turns out to be blur too, i never knew that could happen thanks for such an eye-opener ah! Then took a proper one, and we were laughing.. laughing.. laughing about something and suddenly FLASH. He accidentally pressed the button and took a shot. I'm totally amazed by his photography skills tonight. In the end the picture caught a corner of my cousin's face hahaha! Then his turn to take with me. Colleen was like: 1..... 2...... Joshen: HAIS, (backs out of the photo). It's super funny how hard it is to take a photo with him. And he was like, can you just 1,23 and get over and done with it. I was laughing like mad la cause one so fast one so slow xD In the end one of the 2 shots was unglam but yeah... I saw the shadows developing and never saw that photo again. xD Really fun dinner with them! 9 plus already so colleen and I headed to our next destination, acid bar.
Meet xintao at somerset. While waiting for woei ting to come, went Victoria Secret to shop because I need to buy perfume, just finished mine. In the end I got it as a present from my deary couzz hehe. Damn funny again. She was like : "People already buy Marc Jacobs already how do i have a choice." HAHAH! Acid bar was full house so we cabbed down to bugis. The woei ting hor really wanna make me have a memorable birthday so much, made us walk in the middle of the busy traffics of orchard road to get our cab. And she ask me, is this YOLO enough? HAHA, love her! On the cab also much crap, just happened that xintao, my cousin and myself chinese standards all bad one then she haven't drink already like drunk keep reciting chinese lines. And the taxi uncle actually said her chinese good sounds like Confucius speaking! HAHA In the end clarke quay also super crowded so hard to even pass through so we changed destination to bugis. Went to V7 because everywhere else was too crowded, especially bars because my initial plan wasn't to go club! Shared table with YimLee and her friends which I'm sorry I don't know their names! They were singing chinese songs not bad luckily I'm a quite chinese person but only one out of the many many groups were guys and there was this cute guy at the side. I was more like looking at the performance than drinking. First, it was the price of the alcohol that shocked me. Second, it was the smoking indoors that shocked me. Third, it was the 3s thingy where you pour the strong alcohol into ur mouth that shocked me. I was forced to do the 3s thingy too by the other friends but because I keep rejecting they make me drink half mix instead. After I took a sip my face immediately changed like GAHH OMG the taste so bitter. I was very conscious of the match I have the next day idw to shoot while seeing 3 nets so I didn't wanna challenge myself (honestly there isn't much to challenge really, i don't drink normally and I highly believe that I can't hold my liquor well) HAHA! And I really don't like the taste maybe if it was sweeter I would re-consider. After my cousin left, felicia and I were like xiang yi wei ming inside, saving each other and protecting each other xD Pour woei ting keep kena forced to drink and it's harder for her to reject because it's her friends. Ｉdo love to party but I really think this drink isn't my type of thing. It's funny how I keep asking woei ting to walk straight because she's a lil high already but she can walk straight lah xD It's just fun to tease. I was talking rubbish like why the toilet at Vivo (we were at bugis plus) and all of them immediately thought I drunk. I had such a hard time explaning myself and I'm not drunk I'm just tired. And they say that's what all the drunk people say. HAHA! So yuan wang, how do you say you're not drunk when you're really not drunk! I also made a mental note to myself that I must experience Zouk soon before it closes down! After awhile we hopped to Club icon. Felicia and I almost couldn't go in becaue somehow ladies need to be above 21 but that guy let us in. Tingting came to join us too. I love the music here better, they sing better. But the instavid that I record probably because it's too loud you can't hear shit. I like the music but the haste here was worst. I was so conscious till I smell my own clothes and omg I smell like a smoker. Cabbed home with felicia at around 3 because we both have to wake up early the next day (later). It was really an eye-opener and experience for me as I ponder amidst my deep thoughts of what's going through the minds of these people who club regularly. Had a short discussion with felicia, but we really feel to comprehend x)
I don't know why but this holiday I keep having this feeling of... I wish that I am able to do more to protect some one, seeing how sad and alone he is, i wish I could do something to cheer up he day. I wish I was someone to his life that could do something and make him feel better, yet at the same time I don't want to be any one in his life. But I'm no one. I don't need you to protect me, I wanna protect you. It's okay, these confusing feelings are not gonna last. (These set of words can literally apply to teenager of our age, because deep down in our heart, we all feel so empty. empty. empty.)
人越疯,心越空.
Was listening to the song "When I was your man" just now and realised the lyrics are really really sad.
"
Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
"
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