张艾嘉 - 《忙与盲》
Before I begin, just thought of sharing this very meaningful oldie that my dad and I used to sing together.
Hello humans. It's funny how I call you guys humans its like a separation as if i'm not part of the human clan. Back to blogging, reminds me of how unplanned my journal is and how it can jump from one topic to another, but it's the only avenue that I show my truest self.
Warning, the post below may be dense with errors due to the feverish brain, so good luck in figuring out my language :)
Okay, it's 2:40AM whatsapp, thursday morning and there's school.. till 6PM wtf. That day was piecing the lego for our college 25th anniversary and I got a lil bit too pissed so i went like fuck it. Then YT was like, please do not insult the f word you do not say it in that tone. HAHAH, quite funny, it actually means i don't sound aggressive and natural saying that word. Recently I've been more conscious and realised I kept scolding the F word but I kept it before it comes out too loud, I need to maintain man. NO VULGAR LYNETTE. Okay i don't know what's wrong with me because I'm having fever again, 37.6 degree. Okay I know what's wrong, because I sound be sleeping at this hour, I don't have enough rest. But it's okay, i'll just act like I don't have fever because if I hadn't feel a lil comfortable and a lil bored to take my temperature, I wouldn't have know that I had fever and wouldn't tell myself things like it's the best time to rest now and sleep! EXCUSES.
This topic has been on my mind lately. How do you know if you're really pushing yourself and not stretching yourself to the limit already? Some day that nothing is impossible, there are no limits, the only limit is yourself. So there's no such thing as stretching yourself to the limit? Whatever it is, I believe i'm still very far from that asymptote so... let's work harder mehmehmeh.
Basically, let me update you the life of an insomnia kid. GOSH, I can't believe I'm having insomnia at the age of 18. You wouldn't believe how a heavy sleeper i was just ... maybe 1-2 years ago? I can sleep any time, any where, even when i'm not tired. Now, I have to be real tired to fall asleep. (rubbing my eyes now, it's a good sign... a while more.) So, I just did breakfast and lunch for my whole family and cooked hell lot of luncheon meat wrapped with wholemeal bread toasted with egg and toppled with garlic chilli sauce, like one of my favourite sauce. Don't get a shock because my family only 3 people, my mum, my dad and I haha! But i don't know why today the oil was extra jumpy and i've got quite a few spots scalded around my arms and feet haha the oil was just splattering everywhere. Spent equal amount of time washing up, cleaning up with cooking. Cooking is actually a quite fun, patient and stress-relieving activity to be engaged in. The moment when you see your luncheon meat in that even tan and perfectly fried, not overly or under..-ly? Accomplishment unlocked *TINKTINK* The sad part comes the washing, but I think once you start washing the first dish, you won't feel so reluctant anymore. It's only when the whole mountain of dishes undone that you feel no motivation to touch it. (HAHA GUYS GUESS WHAT, I AM CURRENTLY BLOGGING ON MY BED AND I JUST TURNED OVER AND I SAW MY RAINBOW BEAR ON TOP OF MY EEYORE AND THEY'RE KISSING.) I didn't even arrange them like that, so cute haha! Oh ya just now was helping my mom do the song thing aagain.. spent an hour helping her write the names of her Catholic song files and there was too much word pun involved, laughed till i'm too weak to do anything xD Early in the night went jogging with dad, but I ate supper so I think no net work done or even fat intake > fat burned because the jogging was slow and i don't think I burned much. It's okay, I'm the type that will eat as much as I want and like, but work it hard and work it out. Not eat a little so that I can avoid exercising. I love to exercise! :D Actually I really love every thing, even studying (!)
Read some nice chinese quotes on twitter that I found it rather reflective and it's like a new view point for me. I'm gonna try translating them for you here because I know how lousy some of your chinese are.
I don't text you anymore because your coldness hurts me, I don't take initiatives anymore because I realised I can't move you all.
I've learnt to give not because I have a lot, but because I know very well how horrible it is to feel empty.
If something is of importance to you, you'll find a solution. If it isn't, you'll find excuses.
Tomorrow will be better than today. If you don't believe that, today can't be that bad too.
You can fall and get upset, but you gotta get up as you still have your dreams and tomorrow will come.
Last one but the most personal to me:
Don't give too much of yourself and leave yourself with nothing. Learn to love yourself more.
I realised many healthy living, keeping fit, fitness motivational quotes work very well in the context of a student too, like this:
You can have results or excuses, not both.
Another song to end, this very cute song called 童年 -羅大佑. It describes the whole process of us growing up :)
Old songs really have a lot of meaning unlike newer songs which is forever revolving around love.
Hello humans. It's funny how I call you guys humans its like a separation as if i'm not part of the human clan. Back to blogging, reminds me of how unplanned my journal is and how it can jump from one topic to another, but it's the only avenue that I show my truest self.
Warning, the post below may be dense with errors due to the feverish brain, so good luck in figuring out my language :)
Okay, it's 2:40AM whatsapp, thursday morning and there's school.. till 6PM wtf. That day was piecing the lego for our college 25th anniversary and I got a lil bit too pissed so i went like fuck it. Then YT was like, please do not insult the f word you do not say it in that tone. HAHAH, quite funny, it actually means i don't sound aggressive and natural saying that word. Recently I've been more conscious and realised I kept scolding the F word but I kept it before it comes out too loud, I need to maintain man. NO VULGAR LYNETTE. Okay i don't know what's wrong with me because I'm having fever again, 37.6 degree. Okay I know what's wrong, because I sound be sleeping at this hour, I don't have enough rest. But it's okay, i'll just act like I don't have fever because if I hadn't feel a lil comfortable and a lil bored to take my temperature, I wouldn't have know that I had fever and wouldn't tell myself things like it's the best time to rest now and sleep! EXCUSES.
This topic has been on my mind lately. How do you know if you're really pushing yourself and not stretching yourself to the limit already? Some day that nothing is impossible, there are no limits, the only limit is yourself. So there's no such thing as stretching yourself to the limit? Whatever it is, I believe i'm still very far from that asymptote so... let's work harder mehmehmeh.
Basically, let me update you the life of an insomnia kid. GOSH, I can't believe I'm having insomnia at the age of 18. You wouldn't believe how a heavy sleeper i was just ... maybe 1-2 years ago? I can sleep any time, any where, even when i'm not tired. Now, I have to be real tired to fall asleep. (rubbing my eyes now, it's a good sign... a while more.) So, I just did breakfast and lunch for my whole family and cooked hell lot of luncheon meat wrapped with wholemeal bread toasted with egg and toppled with garlic chilli sauce, like one of my favourite sauce. Don't get a shock because my family only 3 people, my mum, my dad and I haha! But i don't know why today the oil was extra jumpy and i've got quite a few spots scalded around my arms and feet haha the oil was just splattering everywhere. Spent equal amount of time washing up, cleaning up with cooking. Cooking is actually a quite fun, patient and stress-relieving activity to be engaged in. The moment when you see your luncheon meat in that even tan and perfectly fried, not overly or under..-ly? Accomplishment unlocked *TINKTINK* The sad part comes the washing, but I think once you start washing the first dish, you won't feel so reluctant anymore. It's only when the whole mountain of dishes undone that you feel no motivation to touch it. (HAHA GUYS GUESS WHAT, I AM CURRENTLY BLOGGING ON MY BED AND I JUST TURNED OVER AND I SAW MY RAINBOW BEAR ON TOP OF MY EEYORE AND THEY'RE KISSING.) I didn't even arrange them like that, so cute haha! Oh ya just now was helping my mom do the song thing aagain.. spent an hour helping her write the names of her Catholic song files and there was too much word pun involved, laughed till i'm too weak to do anything xD Early in the night went jogging with dad, but I ate supper so I think no net work done or even fat intake > fat burned because the jogging was slow and i don't think I burned much. It's okay, I'm the type that will eat as much as I want and like, but work it hard and work it out. Not eat a little so that I can avoid exercising. I love to exercise! :D Actually I really love every thing, even studying (!)
Read some nice chinese quotes on twitter that I found it rather reflective and it's like a new view point for me. I'm gonna try translating them for you here because I know how lousy some of your chinese are.
I don't text you anymore because your coldness hurts me, I don't take initiatives anymore because I realised I can't move you all.
I've learnt to give not because I have a lot, but because I know very well how horrible it is to feel empty.
If something is of importance to you, you'll find a solution. If it isn't, you'll find excuses.
Tomorrow will be better than today. If you don't believe that, today can't be that bad too.
You can fall and get upset, but you gotta get up as you still have your dreams and tomorrow will come.
Last one but the most personal to me:
Don't give too much of yourself and leave yourself with nothing. Learn to love yourself more.
I realised many healthy living, keeping fit, fitness motivational quotes work very well in the context of a student too, like this:
You can have results or excuses, not both.
Another song to end, this very cute song called 童年 -羅大佑. It describes the whole process of us growing up :)
Old songs really have a lot of meaning unlike newer songs which is forever revolving around love.
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