no more peer pressure for me

A penny of thoughts  for the bright morning, thankful for technology that we can have access to this digital diary and pen down our thoughts any moment.

Passed by sengkang basketball court and saw a group of guys playing basketball and really enjoying themselves, you know the feeling when u miss and your teammate miss and you miss again, like you're given a lot of times to shoot but u can't shoot it in. while waiting for my bus I was really enjoying my present view. This made me miss my secondary school days again. As sad as I later found out that they didn't really like me, but it was sweet while it lasted. I remember the days where wewould crash Ryan's house to play ball, or play in school court during recess. How you guys would include me in the game when I can't bounce only can shoot (I'm a netballer),but I can jump and defend! How when everyone slowly seems to forget my presence because they're all guys but yanghan and Anthony always passes the ball to me and let me try. And Justin who always solo once he has his hands on the ball. And the ABC game that I won Kelvin Lee once, but lost the rest of the time. And the stupid faces and screams Deyi tries to make to distract me and make me laugh. How hia would hug the balland turn in circles to prevent people from catching. How shy Brian is to pass the ball to me . how I always use my height as an advantage to disturb Ryan and cover his ball. How you guys thought me the basketball rules. I very very long never had a proper basketball game already, and I really miss that.

In a side note, it's so Tiring to live life being the nice guy. If yourealised, real fun requires you to be crazy and that stops you from being the typical nice girl. You really can't be both at once. Which one do I wanna be and which one will truly make me happy? Maybe the one that I wanna be will nor make me happy, but I guess I''ll still go for the one that I wanna be.  a good choice may not be a popular choice.

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